Have you ever taken a leap of faith? Or chosen to trust when there seemed to be no reason to do so?
If so, what happened?…
Like everything else in life, what if it just comes down to making a choice and then standing by it?…. knowing that the more you practice anything, the easier it becomes.
Choosing to trust…
I can hardly believe it has been over 4 years already since I left my flying career with United to take my big leap of faith. I had felt this inner stirring to choose to embody trust, not just to know about it. This felt like a very exciting adventure, to fly on my own wings and allow myself to truly experience being held by Source.
Good thing I didn’t know what this would entail…
the next few years were the most intense transformational years of my life and by no means all smooth sailing.
Yet, no matter how tough the going got, I somehow knew that my commitment to embody my Divine essence would carry me through. This called on me to release the many, many ways the control freak in me was used to running the show! And I can tell you… it had quite a repertoire;) Letting go was quite the workout!
It became clear to me that embodying trust meant that all the various costumes, disguises and roles the controller in me had taken on, simply had to go. Time for a new wardrobe!
You know how you can often clearly see in other people’s lives where they might be holding on?… And you might even sense that this could very well be something to pay attention to in your own life?… Haha…
The ways we can then justify and defend holding on… I would find myself saying things like: ‘Yes, I am willing to let go of this and that but NOT that’, whatever ‘that’ would be in the moment… I even found myself holding on to my mattress, almost keeping it in storage rather than letting it go, just because it was so comfortable!
I did end up letting go of the mattress;) And I am enjoying wonderful beds on my Joy Sprinkle Trail.
Fortunately I have had a tremendous amount of support along the way from the Delphic Wave gatherings and sessions with Mary Nalini MacNab.
I am currently participating in the Isis Great Mother Goddess intensive, which just started last week. (http://bit.ly/Isis2012 )
Absolutely love how these events were scheduled last year…talk about trusting Divine timing;)
And how the time has arrived for all the archetype energies to receive an upgrade… Nalini talks about that in the short video below.
When I recently literally let go of pretty much all my earthly belongings, this was simply an ‘outer’ reflection of everything I had let go of internally. As within, so without, right?…
I thought it quite symbolic when my dear friend Carla helped me with going through my wardrobe and we ended up taking 7 huge garbage bags full to the recycle place, leaving me with a few basics. The only things I kept were those items which felt good and matched my current energy. There were plenty of dresses etc which were still as good as new but they simply didn’t resonate with me anymore so… letting go so as to make room for that which does match.
So why is it that letting go seems to be such a challenge for most people?
Whether it is letting go of physical items like clothes or furniture… or emotional attachments to people, places or things… or beliefs and opinions about life, others, self…
What if letting go means releasing control?… What if letting go brings up where you do or do not fully trust (yet)?…
As the last bits and pieces were released, this immense sense of freedom filled me. And a knowing that the Divine really has my back, always, at all times and under all conditions. So I trust… even when it appears there is no reason to do so… and you know what? It now makes me laugh that I doubted so much for so long.
Yet, as Nalini said to me many times, as one of her teachers said: “Doubt is the ego’s last line of defense”.
So if you find yourself doubting… this is VERY good news. You’re right around the corner from embodying trust;) So keep going, be willing to surrender those doubts and … choose to trust. Again and again…
Before you know it you will be wondering why you ever doubted in the first place! You will simply know in every fibre of your BEing that you are held, loved and supported by the Divine/Source as the Divine BEing you are.
And by the way, doubt can take on many disguises… worry being one of them. Perhaps you have your own preferred costumes;)
Sometimes you need to take a leap of faith and grow your wings on the way down.~ author unknown
May your Joy Sprinkle Trail fill you with delight every step of the way…
to be continued…
Many joyful blessings,
Tina
www.innerdelight.com
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