If Your Soul Were To Play Piano For You…

25. January 2013 · Write a comment · Categories: Embodying Divinity · Tags: , , , ,

If your soul were to play piano for you, what would that sound like?

Well, I recently had the pleasure of receiving a musical soul journey with Silvia Dragt and Reina Oversteeg in the Netherlands. I had heard about the beautiful work they do together and was excited about having the chance to experience this live before going to Oz.

A few years ago I was in France and met David Bailey in Rennes le Chateau. He would ask your name and then moments later start playing what your soul was saying. It moved me to tears.
Turns out that Silvia had also met David and this had inspired her to start playing the piano intuitively.
Reina is a wonderful channel for Source and one of her gifts is reading someone’s energy and putting that into words.
When the two of them join together, something magical happens.

While Silvia plays the piano, Reina writes the messages she receives and wouldn’t you know it?… The music and messages are a perfect match.

The audio tracks were recorded and put on a CD, the messages typed out and both were sent to me so that I can listen to and read this gift from my Soul to me, via Silvia and Reina, again and again. Guess what the tracks were called?
Sparkle of Joy, Love, The Essence and Free.

How is that for a confirmation?!

The music and messages can support someone in their transformational journey and are also offered long distance. The beauty of technology, right?

To give you a sense of what these sessions are like, we recorded my Musical Soul Journey. I am happy to share it with you and give you a glimpse of what my soul was expressing.
So… sit back and enjoy the next 38 minutes.

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I’d love to read your comments on how this felt for you. And if you’d like to have your own musical message from your soul, whether for your personal journey or for your business, then you can contact Silvia and Reina at  http://magictones.nl

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Women and Anger

14. September 2012 · 2 comments · Categories: clearing fear · Tags: , , , ,

What is it with women and anger that will have them shove it down, ignore it, deny it, suppress it or otherwise avoid dealing with it?

What is it that has made so many women shut up when truthfully they  felt a loud scream wanting to be expressed? What is it about women fearing the expression of anger that, rather than saying NO MORE, they silently allow it and put up with all kinds of abuse? What is it about women believing they have to be ‘a good girl’ and that having a fit of rage is not allowed or appropriate? What is it about women that they will rather deny themselves than risk disappointing anyone else?

For many years I felt extremely uncomfortable being around anyone expressing their anger or rage. Even if it wasn’t directed at me, I would attempt to harmonize the energy so as to restore peace as soon as possible. Especially when this anger seemd completely irrational to me.


I had been told many a time that I was suppressing the anger within myself and that it might help to go for a drive, turn the stereo up full blast and let myself scream, so as to get that pent up energy moving. Well, I’d try that but the only thing that brought me were a sore throat and even more frustration that I couldn’t seem to get to the core of it. Never mind that I’d feel extremely conscious of anyone driving by and possibly hearing me and thinking me stark raving mad!

Then 9/11 happened and a month later I happened to have a week’s intensive at the healing school I was attending.

That’s when the terrorist in me was set free…

the grief and feeling powerless about the events that had happened, triggered a time bomb within me, which had been ticking away for a very long time.
In this safe space I suddenly felt the grief rise to the surface and I started sobbing until I was wailing…. and then I started feeling the anger well up from deep within me… and before I knew it I was shredding big fat yellow page books to pieces while screaming, yelling and sobbing all at the same time… while seeing the terrorists of 9/11 and in my mind beating them to pieces… then suddenly seeing flashes of many other lifetimes in which I had not felt safe to express the rage within or where I had done so and then been killed in one form or another… seeing priests in churches and temples telling me to do one thing while I felt they were being hypocrits by  not walking their talk and now yelling at them how I really felt about them… and then eventually it came to expressing my rage and fury at God…

Shreds of paper everywhere… finally exhausted from all this energy being released… and experiencing the moment of re-emerging into oneness and experiencing the truth of God, the Divine… and then the sorrow and shame for having forgotten the truth… and finally the peace of being Home again….

It was the shame that had held me back from accessing and releasing this core piece.

Not only the shame of having forgotten the truth but also all the rules and conditions of being a woman… and letting myself express anger in any way, shape or form was just so not lady like!

So rather than risking being judged by others and all the consequences associated with that, I (un)consciously allowed that rage to turn inward upon itself. It would show up as being very demanding of myself, critical and having impossibly high standards to live by.

Having been let down one time too many, the disappointments had set into motion this program of not needing anyone else. “I can take care of myself fine, thank you very much.” I would rather go without something than having to ask for support, just in case I’d be denied or rejected, or… worse still… be considered weak. As long as I was giving, then I was in control and felt strong and secure ( or so that part in me thought!).

Not exactly conducive to receiving…

Yet that explosion unleashed the raw creative lifeforce and power kept hostage within me for goodness knows how long and was a huge catalyst on my awakening journey.

Over the years I have facilitated thousands of TAT ( Tapas Acupressure Technique) sessions and time and time again I have witnessed this lifeforce power being unleashed in others while holding the pose, inviting someone into their awareness with whom they have unfinished business and giving themselves permission to truly express how they feel about them. When I mention that this is not a time to be spiritual, they usually have to laugh and then feel this huge relief.

And yet, the number of women who have said they simply could not let themselves get really angry, even if it was in a silent conversation taking place in their mind…
It usually brought up lots of judgments and lots of fear. Fear that if they really let themselves go in this step that something horrific would happen to the other person or they would harm them in some way or that they would be punished ( by whom exactly?…) for expressing this rage.

This gridlock would usually shift while going through the forgiveness steps. Sometimes it happens that there is an unwillingness to forgive ( heaven forbid, how unspiritual!)…  then it would be great to hold the pose and simply say: “I am not willing to forgive you at this moment. I might forgive you in time to come but right now, I am not willing or ready yet.”

Even when the conscious mind knows that forgiving is setting yourself and those involved free, there may be resistance at times, as if forgiving is letting someone off the hook. By then giving yourself permission to not forgive quite yet, it is acknowledging how you are feeling and opens the way for miracles fast.

When you consider yourself spiritual ( really… what does that actually mean???) then this may be a bit of a hurdle to get over.

While I was still flying, I had a friend whom I loved very dearly. We had known each other for many years, traveled together and always had a lot of fun together. Then he rejected me for ‘being too spiritual’. It broke my heart.
A few months later I was in San Francisco and as I was going to the elevator with one of my girlfriends, he walked past as he happened to be there,too.

My body felt as if it had just been whacked by a sledgehammer.

I thought I had released whatever he triggered in me but obviously not yet. So when I returned to my room later that day, I did a TAT session and when I got to the forgiveness part, much to the shock and horror or my spiritual ego, I was unwilling to forgive him. I let myself tell him in no uncertain terms how I felt about him and what had happened and that I wanted him to suffer as I had suffered before I would forgive him. And I gave myself permission to hold off on forgiving him right now and said I probably would one of these days as it would feel better for me but not yet.

I felt things shift and I experienced a huge relief at having given him a piece of my mind… I also wondered when this would be completely transformed.
The next morning I was in the steamroom and thought I’d do another TAT session and… when it was time for the forgiveness step, I was willing to let it go and the charge was gone!

If you’re a woman, or you know a woman, who finds it hard to express anger…

then I’d suggest you give yourself the gift of a TAT session to unleash this inner volcano which may just be waiting to explode.Rather than waiting for others or circumstances to trigger an explosion of rage, why not hand it over to the cosmic laundry service to be transformed…

so this raw lifeforce power can support you in expressing your authentic Self in creative ways?

There are many ways to do this, I am just sharing one of them;) And the beauty is that when you shift this energetically, there’s no need to play it out in your physical life! ( although part of you might want to… hence a great one to offer up for release). Releasing this trapped energy from your body, field and life may just surprise you… It may have been suppressed for so long that you didn’t even know it was there… and when that energy is released…wow…

May your Joy Sprinkle Trail fill you with delight every step of the way…

to be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Reality Clearance Sale To Freedom

13. August 2012 · 6 comments · Categories: energy clearing · Tags: , , , , , ,

Three weeks ago I was sitting at my dining table and suddenly I had this urge to start posting most of my furniture on a Dutch site similar to e-bay. The decision to move from my apartment had been made and I had a month to clear out my place…  I  realized it was time for a reality clearance sale!
As this move felt so divinely supported, I also felt everything would be supported by grace and ease…

So… I took some pictures and posted the ads. Within hours I started getting emails and phonecalls. I was amazed! Next thing I knew I had sold the first bookcase and that meant I had to take out all the books in a hurry.

Oh my goddess… this was starting to feel very,very real, very, very fast!

It also happened to be right in the middle of the last segment of the Trinity gatherings with Mary Nalini MacNab from Delphic Wave, which happened to be all about acknowledging and receiving;) Embodiment of oneness…
When the first cupboard was picked up I felt elated and this continued over the next few weeks. As every item was released I felt this wave of freedom and yesterday the last ‘big’ item was sold: my bed.

So I am now sitting in my very spacious living room on a deck chair and will be sleeping on an aerobed for the next week as the last bits and pieces are cleared out and the boxes of what remains go into temporary storage.

I feel so deliciously free and expansive…

I have moved so many times over the years and all over the world. And yet this time it feels different.
Perhaps it is the most conscious move as of yet and by that I mean that I have held every item I owned in my hands and felt if it still resonated with me or not.
Like going through my wardrobe with the help of my dearest friend Carla. With every item I held up, she’d nod yes or no. If it was a ‘no’, which was most of it, then it went into a bag to go to charity. Right down to the jeans I was wearing which had recently ripped yet which fit so snug… into the bag they went and leaving me with just one pair of yoga pants!

The joy and liberation I felt when bringing these bags to the charity containers…
and then the magic started to amp up…

My friend had some brand new jeans which she wasn’t going to be wearing and asked if I wanted to try them on. They fit like a glove and so I received 2 pairs of new jeans within hours of giving most of my clothes away.

I received invitations to go out for dinner with friends and ate out in the most fabulous restaurants almost every night for a week, celebrating, while to all outer appearances it seemed my life was falling apart.

While experiencing all of this I also had a huge clash with the landlord for a week…

Receiving threats and being harrassed which turned out to be a huge gift. The fear of being annihilated was literally being released from my body. The confrontations intensified over a period of 5 days with my body shaking as if being physically attacked.
I was aware that this was not just from the current situation but that didn’t comfort me while in the heat of it.

I’d handed it over to Kali to deal with it while I proceeded to get legal advice and took the action steps required. This was really calling on me to stand in my truth and power.
It just so happened that throughout this intensification I had another starseed activation upgrade and along with the Trinity integration, everything in my system which had been resisting or attempting to keep out my light was being transformed and optimized.

The brighter my light was shining, the angrier the landlord seemd to get! That’s when Nalini reminded me that when Kali optimizes any situation in your life that she also optimizes you;) So this intensification was a very good ‘sign’ in a way, even though I can say it felt veeeeeeery uncomfortable.

The good news was that this was clearing things at such a deep level and so fast ( that’s goddess optimal!) that this emotional tsunami subsided within 5 days and after the weekend it was as if I was speaking with a different person.
By now the fear was gone. I knew it was really gone when I saw him and his wife a few days later and there was no more physical reaction in my body. Just peace and light. Like this magical sky…

Now the countdown is on to wrap things up and move by the weekend. I have stopped announcing plans and instead share the update of the moment with my friends and family. With things changing and shifting so fast, it’s like the weather forecast;)

So… today’s status has me enjoying a few more soaks in the bathtub before I hand back the keys and then going to stay with friends. I thought I would be on my way to Oz as soon as I moved but… the joy sprinkle trail is nudging me to go visit some friends in France first. Welcome to the freedom ride!

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Dying To Your Old Life To Wake Up In New Reality

15. July 2012 · 3 comments · Categories: Embodying Divinity · Tags: , , , , , ,

Wow, what a month… with the new moon just a few days away, I was reflecting on the last few weeks and everything which has happened since the last new moon along with the Solstice, the Age of Aquarius announcing itself with the first of 7 Pluto/Uranus squares ( inner complete transformations and sudden awakenings) and a whole lot more…

At new moon time I always love to join Mary Nalini Macnab’s calls ( http://bit.ly/NewMoonJuly2012 ) as we gather from all over the world to declare our intentions for the upcoming cycle, which I then write down on paper and place under my pillow that night. For anyone who has done this, you will know how amazing it is when looking back at those papers later on…

Well, you know how they say to be careful what you wish for? I’d say it would probably be more accurate to say: be conscious of what you wish for… 

So… this time my #1 intention was: Living a fully Source-directed life.

Of course I knew that would stir up everything which had been out of alignment with that intention and I was like: “Yeah, go for it and bring it on!”
I mean, with all the deep inner transformations and upgrades of the last few years, how much more could there be, right?

Haha, yes, I can hear you laughing and saying: What were you thinking?!

Well, that’s exactly it… I wasn’t thinking. This intention was coming from a place deep within my core, beyond words, beyond thoughts.

It seems that the intentions I have called forth around the quarter-turns, such as the Equinox and the Solstice, manifest with love speed. You might recall how I had requested a new home which matched my energy at the last Equinox ( in March) and within 24 hours was notified of lease not being renewed…and ten days later my new home finding me…

Well, this last new moon was right around the Solstice so it might have given me a clue;) And on top of all of that, I am in Nalini’s Trinity program and this is all about embodying oneness…that calls for releasing all limitations ever placed on Self…

It’s as if my life has been in the magical sorting hat ( as in Harry Potter) and everything which was based in ‘old’ definitions has been shaken loose, to make way for everything to be fully aligned with my Divine Self.

This was exactly what I intended… little did I know what was coming…

Within a week of declaring this intention, EVERYthing changed.

Business had been quiet for a few weeks already and my mojo seemed to be on vacation. Not feeling inspired to do anything and not feeling the joy from what usually lit me up. I thought it was a temporary phase and was wondering what would be emerging and until then saw this as an opportunity to recharge. I have had quiet times before and things always had a way of magically showing up and yet, this felt different. My body was feeling tired. My spirit felt weary.

And then it happened…

I woke up one morning and had just had enough. I was no longer willing to live like this. To struggle to make ends meet. To try and make things happen. To let my life be run by this inner control program and feel as if I had to constantly be doing something. And the more I tried, the more exhausted I felt and the less things worked. This was something held so deeply in the body that its survival was dependent on it.

And that’s when I saw it…

a program stored deep in the unconscious with rules and conditions to never be released as long as I was alive.

And right there and then I decided that if the body believed that letting this program be transformed or released would mean its demise, then so be it. I was no longer willing to live this way.
Just to be clear, I did state my choice to live a fully Source directed life and to embody my light fully. So whatever had to happen to shift this, shift it must!

Nalini suggested I work with the audios in the Embodying Fluidity program and in particular with the audios of “Clearing Bloodline and Genetic patterns” and “Releasing symptom-causing patterns”. This was deep, deep cellular imprinting from not only my genetic family but also from my soul family… (If you are relating to any of this then I highly, highly recommend you gift yourself with these audios.)

The next few days my life as I had known it ended.

It literally felt as if I had died. The body was still here but the contents were gone. I experienced a 24 hour cycle of being in limbo, totally detached from everything, as if I was in a huge void… and then I suddenly found myself being propelled forward and with a loud inner scream and f%@$&!!!! and unable to resist, finally surrendering… and waking up in another reality.

To all outer appearances, things would appear to be the same… however, my perception had shifted. I was looking around the room and seeing the furniture and yet my perception was ‘seeing’ what was beyond the form.
It felt like my eyes had been adjusted. I would squeeze them shut and open them again, only to find that nothing was as it appeared anymore.

How the heck do I function in the world in this way?!

The next few days I found myself trying to find ways I could come up with money to pay the rent. Yet no matter what I did, there was absolutely no joy in it and nothing flowed. It felt like grasping at straws out of habit. This all happened over the weekend and by Monday the rent had to be paid.
Monday arrived and no money. So… I called the owner and explained the situation I was in. Having absolutely NO idea how this would sort itself out, I let go of wanting to hold on to living here. I had just moved in a few months ago and love this place. It felt like coming home and feels as if I have lived here for ages. To have to move again so soon and under these circumstances?

I took a deep breath and let go… trusting all is well and allowing myself to be guided with every step.
Feeling the calling inside to go home, home to Australia.

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Regardless of whether or not money would show up, it felt time to go home.
As I shared this with my dearest friends over the next few days it felt like being at my own funeral while alive. Feeling how much I am loved and how much I love my friends here. This is partly what kept me from leaving before… even though I know these heart connections are beyond time and space.

A miracle happened that Thursday after a few more tears were shed with friends when I shared where I was at.
I came home to find an email that one of my dearest friends had sent me a gift… the money required for the rent!
I burst into tears of gratitude as my heart opened to receive this fully.

While my entire life is shifting to align with Divine Agenda, rather than personal agenda, I continue to surrender… and it feels like what I am surrendering into is the fullness of my Being, free from limitations… coming home to my Self.

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

 

Feeling Weary and Exhausted?

15. June 2012 · 4 comments · Categories: clearing fear, energy clearing · Tags: , , , , ,

Have you ever noticed how much tension is held in the body that you may not have been aware of until…

you had an experience of deep (emotional) release? And only then realized how tightly you’d been holding on?…

I have been experiencing a lot of this lately. And most of it seems to have been driven by the controlling attempts of ego programming. What do I mean by that? All the ways I have identified who I am with certain roles, identities taken on over the years. Letting these go, one by one, as I am aware of them, feels like getting naked. That feels vulnerable and that triggers subtle ( and sometimes not so subtle!) ways of covering up once again.

I once read somewhere: EGO = Edging God Out

Pushing the Divine out, trying to remain in control.

It dawned on me that this is precisely what these programs have been doing. And that as I am surrendering to the Divine more and more, I am feeling the exhaustion being released.
It has been like trying to keep a beach ball pushed under water for goodness knows how long.
I suddenly saw how there had been this unconscious addiction to adrenaline, triggered by fear, which had been stored in the body. I could literally feel it in my kidneys.
This kept me constantly doing something to transform the fears and hence kept me in this loop of DO-ing. A catch 22 cycle…

Until it dawned on me that I could ‘simply’ hand over all the unconscious addictions to the Divine to be transformed. And that I could simply BE. If action is required then I receive inspiration and I act on that. And if there is no inspiration, then I simply relax and rest.

Now how do I recognize this pattern is trying to run the show?

It wants to DO something, anything… as long as it is doing something, it feels important, in charge and as if things are under control.
When there is nothing to DO, it freaks out.Totally exhausting!

Over the last few years I have really come to trust the magnificence of Divine Timing and Scheduling. The number of times I have experienced appointments being cancelled or postponed and suddenly having unexpected time off… and then receiving the rest I required and hence being open to receive many wonderful insights… and everything I require, including money to cover living expenses, showing up in unexpected ways.

It used to trigger lots of doubt and fear in me. So I’d process those and experience relief… for a while… until the next wave came and there was more to process. This was such a sneaky way of keeping me in the DO-ing mode!

I see many on a spiritual path in the same or similar operating mode. Perhaps you can recognize it in others? Maybe even in yourself?

If so, no wonder so many light ‘workers’ are feeling exhausted and weary by now.

I feel very blessed to have ‘discovered’ the HeartSpace, as shared by Mary Nalini MacNab from www.delphicwave.com.
When I first experienced this a few years ago, I sort of got it… well, that’s what I thought. Haha… the clue here was that I thought I got it;)

Nalini said that the HeartSpace was given to us by the Divine Mum to support us through these times as these energies are simply too much for the bodies to transmute. That is what many of us have been DO-ing for who knows how long…

Having been a very dedicated spiritual warrior in many incarnations, totally committed to the Divine, the joke is that I see now how I had been so busy DO-ing that I edged out the Divine.
What an interesting way of twisting energies…

I really ‘got it’ the other day ( only took me a few years) when I heard Nalini laugh when someone mentioned that handing everything over to the Divine, into the cocoon to be transformed ( you can get a visual of this on the www.beheartspace.com site and in the e-book you can experience it more in-depth) was the easy way…

Well, it is the ‘easy’ way if you can surrender to the Divine;) And that requires letting go of the controller, the DO-ing… and allowing yourself to be held by the Divine, to let her handle the details, to trust that when she requires you to take action, she will inform you and you will know…

One of the biggest arguments against this is often that if you hand it all over to the Divine, then you won’t DO anything anymore and just sit and meditate all day.

Well, that is a big fat lie! A very clever and convincing one at that but still a lie.
Just another way of keeping separation between Spirit and humanity in place.

What if the truth is that we are living here in co-creation with the Divine… and that as sparks of the Divine in physical human form, we are here to live as one with the Divine? Like rays of sunshine, each an expression of the sun?
The sun being the source and the rays expressions of the source… One can’t BE without the other….
Or as Nalini often says, like the droplets in the waves in the ocean…

So what if the identity of the spiritual warrior is outdated? Who would you BE without that identity?

Many of the qualities defining the spiritual warrior may still be ‘valid’, however, what if the energy inherent in being a warrior is handed over to the Divine to be transformed and optimized for these times?
That does require courage, a warrior quality indeed. What if there is no fighting or battle required, which keeps the duality of good vs bad in place? What if it is a matter of letting all the identities go which have kept you edging out the Divine?

And that by embodying your Divinity, your light shines so bright that all that is required is for you to ‘simply’ BE…. giving expression to your authentic spark of the Divine in ways only you can… taking action when you feel the inspiration from the Divine… and that as you let your light shine, just like a ray of sunshine, that your presence illuminates the world…

I wonder what this will be like… and so I surrender the spiritual warrior identity, and any other identities I may have (un)consciously been holding on to, to the Divine now… to be transformed… allowing this body to be a vessel for the light of the Divine… joyfully expressing this in many ways I am sure to yet discover;)

If you can relate to any of this, I’d love to read about your experiences and insights! So go ahead and leave a comment… and please share this with your friends if you feel that way inspired. You can click on any of the social media buttons below, making it super easy.

Thanks and many joyful blessings,
Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Divine Money Laundry Service

12. June 2012 · 1 comment · Categories: energy clearing · Tags: , , ,

The conversation around money continues… and yes, you read it right: Divine Money Laundry Service.

What the heck is this?!
Ever since my enlightening conversation with money a little while ago ( feels like lifetimes have passed since writing about that!), I have been having the most interesting insights and shifts. In case you missed that conversation, you can read it here: http://www.innerdelight.com/wp/can-you-guess-who-she-is/

You know how you can read or hear about something 1000 or so times and then the next time it ‘suddenly’ clicks into place? The events leading up to this recent click for me included many sessions with Mary Nalini MacNab from http://delphicwave.com. Last year sometime she told me about Inelia Benz’s ‘Reconnecting with the Spirit of Money Exercise’ . I listened to the audio and did the exercise, however, something in me was resisting things shifting so… I ‘forgot’ to do it and then forgot all about it… yes, this does still happen to me on occasion, too! Yet another confirmation of the power of support from a mentor or group…

So I had the conversation with money and then Fay Hart shared a comment on Facebook about Inelia’s exercise.
Just the other day I popped on over to Inelia’s site again and actually read the written version of the exercise. And wow… there it was… one of the last sentences:

“The signature, you will find, is extremely similar to that of Mother Earth because they are one and the same.”

That I had not read that or registered that as a big aha before was amazing to me;) Yet here we are…
Seems it took a while for me to allow this to emerge in conscious awareness.

I was sharing this with my dear friend Nicola this morning, whose magical conversations in her 5D Girl Diaries you can read at http://fifthdimensionalgirl.wordpress.com/, and she asked if I had written a blog about this yet. Well, I had not and so she sparked me to get this ‘out there’! Thanks Nicola;)

As I have been very aware that presence or absence of money has nothing to do with money itself but everything to do with the projections we have placed upon it and/or identified with, I started pondering how I could take this to another level. And so it dawned on me that it was time for the Divine Money Laundry Service.

Nalini has been teaching me how to let the HeartSpace hold me and to surrender everything holding me back from embodying my Divinity to the Divine, to hand it over to the transformational cocoon. I have often referred to the cocoon as the cosmic laundry service… and during the current Trinity series there is a lot of surrendering going on!

After that conversation with money I took out a few 50 euro bills and sprayed them with one of my Aura Soma sprays, to clear the energy of the projections infused in those bills.

You could do this with a smudging stick or holy wood or whatever clearing method you prefer,too. Or create your own spray by adding some yummy essential oils to water and spray with that. Something magical happens when those bills smell delicious… and it is a lot of fun!
And yesterday it occurred to me that every time I do this, whether money is coming into my bank account or is handed to me in physical notes or coins, that I have another opportunity to clear that money of all the projections and once again reveal her essence of love and light. And that whenever I then send that cleared money into circulation, she is spreading love and light everywhere she goes. I simply intend the money in my account to be cleared by the Divine Money Laundry Service and to be infused with the yummy spray of my choice, just like I would spray the bills in my presence.

Just like putting laundry into the washing machine and coming out all nice and clean;)

So there you have it, the Divine Money Laundry Service! It is free, anyone can use it and it is available 24/7.

Can you imagine how your experience with money might transform when you look at it this way?
It is such a fabulous opportunity to clear up all the judgments, opinions, points of view etc you have held about money, people having or not having money, including yourself, and organizations dealing with money…

and allowing the Divine to transform all of that so that the essence of money remains, to be circulated consciously.

Of course it isn’t necessary to spray your money, however, if this would seem like fun to you, then give it a go and notice what happens…

I’d love to hear about your experiences and what this may have stirred within you!

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Writing and Embodying a New Money Story

15. May 2012 · Write a comment · Categories: energy clearing · Tags: , , , , , ,

Let’s talk about money.

Amazing how one word can evoke so many different responses from within us, isn’t it?…
It has fascinated me, eluded me, tempted me, supported me… and also triggered the living daylights out of me while I unknowingly projected all my judgments about it and those who have or don’t have it, including myself, onto it.

Over the years, I have invested thousands of dollars in programs and trainings to understand what often made no sense to me. And having been one to want to figure things out and loving a good old challenge and mystery to be solved… I didn’t give up very easily.

I looked at the spiritual side of it, the emotional, mental, practical and whatever other sides there were to be explored… An obvious one was that money wasn’t spiritual so therefore wanting anything material at all would make me materialistic and soooo not spiritual! Not to mention the vows of poverty and all of that.
I uncovered many, many inner programs running in the background, running my life and setting me up to keep this mystery unsolved to a large extent.

I studied the Law of Attraction long before it was known as that, attended workshops all over the world from the time I was 18 and even started teaching others how to upgrade their inner programming and shift their reality from the inside out. Resulting in life transforming experiences, including huge money breakthroughs.

I manifested plenty of amazing things over the years and some would take an hour, others a few days and some a few years. From flying around the world first class ( and this was not during my flying career), to money showing up in the most unusual ways, to parking spaces in busy streets, and all kinds of things in between.

And it wasn’t until the other day that a series of insights made me see how I had been withholding from what I would call the ‘BIG’ things showing up as fast as the parking spaces or green traffic lights, for example.

It was a combination of those things that had been ‘hiding’ in plain sight. Have you ever noticed how that is the best way to hide anything?…

Probably REALLY obvious to those around me and yet, no matter how often they may have told me, the penny didn’t drop, literally!

The underlying mother program of them all was based on…

judgments. Not only those I was holding onto about money and what I made the presence or absence of money in my life mean about me… but literally what judgments meant to me.

Have you ever experienced how sometimes hearing a word described in many different ways can suddenly result in one of those light bulb moments? I have been very blessed to attend a lot of Mary Nalini MacNab’s ( from www.delphicwave.com)  programs and having private sessions with her over the years. In the Embodying Fluidity program she talks about surrendering all fixed positions and how holding on to these takes tremendous amounts of energy.

Well, fixed positions include points of view, beliefs, opinions, ways you justify or defend anything in your experience, basically anything which keeps you experiencing lack and separation… and keeps you from embodying Oneness.
So it suddenly clicked into place when I saw that these were all forms of judgment in some shape or another and especially the justifying or defending part.

Which was tied in with the other mother program… that of being addicted to challenges and solving problems!

Which is driven by the control freak aspect which will have you believe you have to DO something, seeking the illusion of being in charge, keeping you trying to figure it out ( this is a BIG red flag to know your controller is active) and will have you trapped in the hamster wheel, complying with the rules and regulations of society so as to be accepted and to fit in, chasing your dreams and never quite living them fully because many of them weren’t originally yours anyway so could never make your heart sing…

and on and on it goes…

And to then pretend to yourself and the world that you’re not judgmental and that you accept what is, while certain people or circumstances can get a charged reaction from you within a milli-second ;)

As long as there is anything triggering you, you’re pushing against it, not wanting to embody it as YOU.
So to the degree that you hold a charge about money or any institutions which represent money to you, you block yourself from receiving this aspect of you and that can reflect in money or lack thereof.

A quick way to check how this might affect you? Well, what comes up for you around the Vatican, for example? I once heard that the Vatican bank is one of the most abundant banks in the world, if not THE most.
Or how about CEO’s of companies receiving huge bonus lump sum payments while the company is going under and employees are losing their jobs or have to take pay cuts?
How about family inheritances? Or coming into money and keeping it quiet from others?

You might be open to receiving and yet find yourself having to get rid of it as soon as possible. This explains why many lottery winners have spent all their millions within two years and often find themselves even worse off than before.

It has nothing to do with money.

It has everything to do with how you feel about it, what you make it mean.
These inner programs can be so intertwined that they spin your mind, tripping you into overwhelm and confusion so that you back off and leave them alone. Hence keeping the story going… and wondering why nothing you DO seems to work.

Now… isn’t there a short cut? Yes, there is.

Love. Love yourself… love your life… love all aspects of you in the many forms they show up and are reflected to you through ‘others’, including money.

As A Course in Miracles so beautifully says: “Love holds no grievances”.
So are you willing to let go of being right? Letting go of justifying why you defend your points of view, opinions, all those fixed positions? Whatever that brings up may well be your way of denying the powerful co-creator you truly are, able to write a new story about money which supports you as you embody abundance in all its forms, including money, as expressions of Oneness…

Will you join me?

Joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

 

Thriving in Times of Change

04. May 2012 · Write a comment · Categories: clearing fear, energy clearing · Tags: , , , ,

Thriving in times of change…
How do you respond to change?… More often than not, it would be accurate to say that we tend to react rather than respond, wouldn’t you agree? Driven by (un)conscious programming, inner operating rules of how to function in this world… so with everything changing, have you considered it might be time to upgrade your inner software?…
To let go of who you have been… so as to become who you intended to be…

I just moved into my new wonderful home last weekend! I love being here… Prior to moving I was clearing out a lot of things I didn’t want to take with me to my new abode ( of which I didn’t know the location yet at the time…)  so with lots of gratitude and deep appreciation for all the value they had offered me over the years, I took 3 carloads full to the local thrift store to offer them a new life elsewhere

It felt so liberating! There was still plenty to move into my new home…and now that I am unpacking, I am finding a few more things to be let go of…
The interesting thing I noticed was how part of me wanted to hold on, to hoard… old remnants of scarcity thinking?…

So I observed those thoughts and felt how my body responded and then took a few deep breaths… thanked them… and offered them to the Divine to be transformed… and then proceeded to the thrift store with more to give;)

The impact of letting go… it has ramifications on so many levels and opens up so much space to receive what is now optimal…
The biggest and most persistent aspect of me which was holding on for dear life? The DO’er…. the part of me that thinks it has to control everything, be in charge or else there is chaos!
This move stirred up its most devious patterns and offered a tremendous opportunity for transformation.

It took a few days of being here in my new home to feel my body relax from this release… I truly feel born anew.
So thriving in times of change …

How about you? How do you ‘deal’ with change? How do you feel about letting go?…. Are you ready and willing to let go of the limited version of who you have been?… And to embrace and embody the magnificence of YOU?

Please share your thoughts and insights…these are nuggets of gold for us all!

joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Blah or Bliss?

07. March 2012 · Write a comment · Categories: clearing fear, energy clearing · Tags: , , , , , , , , ,

Feeling worn out?

If you ever feel like the cat in this picture, then you are not alone!
With the way the energies are being activated at the moment, our physical bodies can really do with some extra nurturing… and that may just call for sleeping at odd times… having massages and especially taking time out to be in nature. And… getting your inner software and operating system upgraded!

Blah before Bliss…

With many on the spiritual path there can be a tendency to overlook the physical, being so well trained in transformation on other levels
that the physical body is not always cherished or supported. The slower and denser vibrations of the material/physical realms can feel like moving through molasses at times… feeling blah… So what do you do when you feel this way?…

‘If you follow your bliss, you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. When you can see that, you begin to meet people who are in your field of bliss, and they open doors to you. I say, follow your bliss and don’t be afraid, and doors will open where you didn’t know they were going to be.’ Joseph Campbell

I love the above Joseph Campbell quote. It is an invitation to let go of what’s been holding you back, settling for less than you know deep inside of yourself is possible for you… It also invites you to listen to your heart and allow your fears to be transformed.
Whenever you accept this invitation, be aware that it may very well bring up all the blah that has been holding back the bliss!

Reason for Celebration!

 So if you’re feeling BLAH, then it may well be time to celebrate! The gunk which has been in your body, emotions, thoughts, life… it is being purged, so to speak, to make room for the intention you declared: BLISS.

To support you in making this transition elegant, smooth and gentle there is a lot you can do.
For starters, you can give yourself permission to simply BE…
Yes, no shoulds, musts, have-to’s…. listening to what you need in each moment, what your body needs and then honoring that.

Taking time to process any outdated beliefs, upgrading your inner programming and definitely balancing that with walks in nature, baths or showers, massages… nurture, nurture, nurture…

Being aware of what is triggered in you when you choose to put yourself first.
Just as they say on the airplane: Put on your own oxygen mask first, before helping others.
You may have heard this and said this a gazzillion times… the question is: are you LIVING it? In other words, have you embodied this message?

Making yourself a priority usually brings up a tonne of beliefs, thoughts, feelings…
Do whatever you need to do to get these upgraded to 2012 version.

Send it all to the cosmic laundry service;) Yourself included!

The polarity work and squares as taught by Leslie Temple-Thurston from www.corelight.org is phenomenal for this. If you have not yet read her book ‘The Marriage of Spirit’, then I strongly encourage you to get your hands on a copy and start working with it.
When you do this kind of clearing work it stops the need to have these things show up in your life again and again, to be brought into balance! That ought to be enough of an incentive;)

Use your energy alignment tools, whatever works for you.
I love using TAT ( Tapas Acupressure Technique) for this and on my website you can find some videos of me guiding you through a session of letting your heart guide you through crisis. click here

Take a look at the many wonderful offerings by Mary Nalini MacNab from www.delphicwave.com which I personally apply daily and LOVE.

Most of all, LISTEN to your SELF!
Allow yourself to receive the wisdom of your Soul and then be willing to act on it…

Before you know it, your physical body will be aligned and thriving with these new higher frequencies and you will be sharing your bliss stories through living them;)

Time to love yourself with wild abandon!

If this resonates with you, I would love to hear about your experiences so please share. And if you think others might benefit from this, then please pass it on, tweet about it, post it on Facebook or your preferred social media platform.

Many thanks and joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

WILD and Thriving

04. March 2012 · 2 comments · Categories: Uncategorized · Tags: , , , , , , ,


Have you ever felt your creative wild woman stirring within you with lots of inspiration wanting to be expressed?  And then found yourself putting your plans on hold until you’d have all your ducks in a row? (what do you mean, perfectionist?!)

Or held back due to lack of money, resources or not knowing how to make it all happen? Thinking that if only you had… ( fill in the blank) then you would move forward?

Isn’t it time you gave yourself permission to honor your wild woman and let her be seen and heard?

When you love yourself enough to thrive, it is no longer acceptable to live a life which is anything less than JOYFUL.

Isn’t it time to tap into your Source for everything you have been seeking outside yourself?  Time to embody your own inner delight?
What does WILD woman evoke within you?…
The Way of the Woman’s Wild Creative Heart is going to be a wildly enJOYable online journey!

When Lisa Dieken invited me to join, it was one of those moments where I had just closed the door by retreating from another collaboration, not knowing yet where I would be guided to now… and within hours of that choice, this new door opened.

At that time I had no idea what the program was going to be about, I just felt a strong inner YES!
The funny thing about it all was that Lisa had hesitated asking me because she thought I might have too much on my plate already but she felt she just had to ask anyway… Isn’t it amazing how Source guides us and how it all unfolds so exquisitely when we actually listen and act on her guidance?…

I am delighted to be presenting one of the 11 classes along with 10 other amazing women.
You can find out more about this program and the phenomenal women joining you on this journey of transformation here: http://bit.ly/WildCreativeHeart

I invite you to come and join me to experience the connection which changes everything…

Here’s to unleashing and celebrating your WILD Woman;)

Joyful blessings,
Tina

 

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