What would happen if you aligned your will with your Divine Self?

It definitely calls for a commitment. Once you are clear on what you are committed to, then the next step is to align your actions with your intentions.This, by the way, naturally results from surrendering into your Divine Self.

In other words, how many times have you been excited or passionate about starting something and decided to go for it, only to find that within days all kinds of excuses came up which prevented you from doing what you had said you would?

A classic example are new year’s intentions and the number of people joining a gym. All excited to get their body in shape. By the end of January, the gym visits have dropped significantly. So what happened? Where did that willpower go? Anyone recognize this?

Over the last few weeks I have discovered the joy of willpower supporting my commitment to being divine alignment in yet another way. I felt an urge to start moving my body again and this happened to coincide with a 14 day Yoga Challenge with Gaiam TV. I loved it so much that I decided to keep going and am now going for 40 days of Fire of Transformation. If you feel inspired to join me, hop on over to http://bit.ly/FireTransformation

There have been a few times when I really did not feel like doing the yoga for that day and that’s when I started observing this willpower going into an old outdated habit of attempting to sabotage me. I happened to be aware of what was going on and in that moment realized it was time for me to claim my power as creator of my life.

I rolled out my mat and put myself on it. I dedicated that day’s practice to releasing all the ways I was holding out on my Self and to allow this practice to really support my divine alignment.

Wow, it was amazing. This particular yoga set starts with the so-called ‘Ego Eradicator’. Haha, how appropriate, right? The moment that inner gremlin knew I meant business, though, it hopped into the cocoon of transformation and that resistance transformed into this flow of life force, nourishing my body and opening spaces inside which had been locked down.

Which has made me wonder what else is possible?

I love the reminder my wonderful mentor Nalini from http://delphicwave.com shared with me a while ago.
She said: “Ask to be shown what’s possible from Her perspective.”

I became aware that any time I was trying to come up with solutions, that was my personality perspective.
When I allow myself to be shown the Divine perspective, it is nothing short of miraculous and magical. Plus I have noticed that these options are always so much more fun.

So if anything were possible and you could wave a magic wand around your life, what would you choose to be different?

Go ahead, allow yourself to dream BIG and write these intentions on a piece of paper, place that under your pillow tonight and allow the Divine perspective to optimize everything on your list.

If you’re game to share, then we can all add our light and love to one another’s intentions. Feels like a gorgeous community garden being nurtured and cherished.

I am calling forth the love of my life in a gorgeous male body Plus the perfect opportunities for me to show up in the world in the biggest and brightest way. And a wonderful home by the beach. Plus plenty of money and resources to support me on my journey as I keep on sprinkling joy. All of this optimized in divine alignment, ofcourse!

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Have you ever noticed that anytime you have chosen to uplevel your life or business that precisely at those times doubt creeps in? Trying to numb you, confuse you or whatever it takes to stop you from shining your light brighter than before.

Anyone who has ever taken a leap of faith by investing in a program, coach or mentor to transform their life will know what I am talking about here.

You get started with great enthusiasm and then usually somewhere around the 3rd or 4th week into your program, resistance starts to fight you every step of the way. Welcome to your inner saboteur!

How to recognize it? Here are 7 of the common ways:

1. internet or phone connection will drop right in the middle of your session, usually at precisely the point of crucial insight
2. foggy brain or eyes glaze over and unable to stay conscious to hear what is being said
3. you miraculously ‘forget’ the time of your appointment or find yourself stuck in traffic or otherwise held up
4. you start falling behind in the program, feel overwhelmed and want to drop out
5. you find yourself doing the exact opposite of what you said you would
6. you start shoulding on yourself and end up feeling miserable
7. just because you ‘mess up’, rather than seeing that as a learning opportunity, you come to the conclusion that nothing will ever work for you so why bother

I have been in another upleveling phase for the last few months myself by participating in several programs to redesign my sacred business. It’s a ‘work in progress’.
This has challenged me to stretch into getting ‘out there’ even while things are not yet ready, to create a program which really reflects the joy flowing through me and to let that be an amazing transformational experience for everyone who joins me as they release their limitations and struggle so they can trust their heart and inner guidance and experience the joy and ease of expressing their authentic Self.

On top of that, I have also participated in Nalini’s Trinity program over the last 3 months. Surrendering the personal self into the Divinity I am. I thought I had done that a gazillion times! Haha, the ‘little self’ sure knows how to play tricks to have us believe its lies. HINT: The fact that I ‘thought’ I had ‘done’ this were red flags.

It has been the most phenomenal journey. Surrendering into BEing. Interestingly enough, as the weeks progressed and whatever had been holding out from surrendering dissolved, clarity emerged and the creative juices were on fire.

Since last week’s new moon it feels as if everything has gone into love speed and it is hard to fathom how much has changed and been implemented since then.

Implemented. A key word in these times. Acting on the inspiration from your infinite BEingness.

Since sending out invitations for the new Joy Booster Discovery Sessions last week, I have had the pleasure of sharing the most sacred conversations with the courageous women who took me up on this call to discover the one thing their heart most desires.
Such an honor and such a joy.

If you’re anything like me, then you will find it much easier to walk your talk when you have the support of a strong community.

And, in fact, you may find yourself participating in several communities, much like tribes.
Sometimes loyalty to your tribe, however, can actually keep you ‘stuck’. It can also take you to new heights.
Tribes can be your family of origin, your soul group family, your friends, your colleagues or anywhere you belong to a group.

Caroline Myss says it so well: “You only rise as high as the tribe you’re in.”

By sharing with others in your tribe, everyone can evolve by supporting one another to rise and shine. When you are in a program to evolve yourself or your business, you can receive amazing feedback from each other, opening to new perspectives, new possibilities, which you might not have considered. Your blind spots are usually very visible to others. When you are willing to receive support, you will keep going when the saboteur shows up.

In order to keep going when times get tough, you have to be connected with your passion, your big WHY. Your inner commitment. This is what fuels the fire in your belly and lights up your heart.

This requires you to connect with your feeling nature and to allow your most vulnerable side to be revealed. It calls forth from within what has been there all along. Your inner treasures.

It’s at times like these that your commitment to embodying the light that you are has got to be priority number one.

Your commitment to living a life of ease and joy has to be stronger than your commitment to struggle and pain.

Your commitment to shining your light has to be stronger than the fear of rejection, which ironically keeps you rejecting YOU.

You know what to do but… do you do what you know? In other words, are you trusting your inner guidance AND are you acting on the inspirations you receive?

As things have been shifting really fast all of a sudden ~  ofcourse it is never all of a sudden but it sure can feel that way~  I am finding it most helpful to spend extra time in nature to integrate all the transformations. My preference is to be by and in the ocean. Especially when the colors of the sunset dazzle my senses with delight.
I also just started a daily yoga practice again by joining the Gaiam TV 14 Day Spring Cleaning Challenge.

For all you high achievers out there… if you’re up for a challenge, this might just be a fun one for you!

To shift the striving for perfection, wanting to be and do the best to an attitude of striving for excellence. This includes accepting where you are at any point in time. On some days the yoga classes are less than half an hour. The inner perfectionist might just want to push you on to DO more. Or not bother at all if it is so little.

Mmm… is this playing out elsewhere in your life?

By allowing yourself to commit to showing up for yourself everyday, you will find your body gently adjusting and becoming stronger and more supple. Easy does it;)

So what to do when doubt sneaks its way into your experience?

• move your body ~ even just getting up and sitting in another part of the room… or dance or have a yoga session or go outside and enjoy time in nature
• shift your perspective ~ one physical way to quickly shift is to let your body hang to the floor and look up at the world from this upside down perspective. Plus it rushes some fresh blood to your brain!
• Choose to re-commit to your divine alignment
• connect with a buddy in your program or reach out to your mentor or coach; if you haven’t found your tribe or mentor yet, then set an intention to be shown an optimal match for you
• acknowledge yourself for how far you have come, for the steps you have taken
• celebrate something you achieved and count your blessings
• remember your big WHY

You are here to embody your Divinity, to shine your light, to express your unique gifts and talents with the world so as to be the biggest contribution you came here to BE.

Do not let doubt or fear hold you back from your commitment. Be strong enough to know when to reach out for support. You denying your Self is not serving anyone nor is it nourishing you with joy.

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Anyone else feeling the amplified creative energies lately? I felt something switch into higher gears with the new moon and it has been flowing ever since. Writing is one the creative outlets which fills me with great joy. The flow of Divinity I am, expressing itself through me… me expressing AS Source.

Over the last couple of years I have been very blessed to receive amazing mentoring via Nalini from Delphic Wave.
It has been quite a journey to let go of all the ways I was holding on to being separate from the Divine. Lots of unconscious agreements, rules and definitions which were keeping me in limitation.

Every time one of those energetic knots holding these limitations in place dissolved, my experience of life transformed.
During this process I came up against a really stubborn part. There were definitely more of those but this one in particular was very adamant to hold on. What was it?

The part of me that was afraid to embody Divinity completely because… it was afraid that I would have to leave all those I love behind as well as everything that was dear to me.

Last summer it was easy to let go of my physical possessions once I chose to go to Australia again.

What was excruciatingly painful to this part was the thought that I would lose my best friends who are like family to me.

While I knew in my mind that this was highly unlikely and actually pretty ridiculous, part of me was resisting this.
After my big turning point , which I wrote about in Dying To Your Old Life To Wake Up In New Reality, I went through a really intense time of grieving.

Grieving the ‘loss’ of my old self, my old life… followed by the grieving of the apparent loss of my friends.

You know, I still recall the day my closest friends came over and I told them of my choice to leave, to return to Australia.
I had stalled out everything which was not coming with me and asked them if there was anything they would like to have. At first they resisted as it felt like being at my funeral and as if they were grave digging! Yet when I said it would bring me great joy to know they would receive pleasure from my treasures then it became easier.

Yet, we cried a lot of tears that night. In fact, as I write this the tears are welling up again… however, this time they are filled with an overwhwelming gratitude for having so much love in my life.

We ended up having a few more very intimate months together before I did actually leave and that was such a precious transition time for us all.

Now that I have been ‘away’ for almost 3 months I am living the experience of being as one as it feels we are so connected that any sense of distance or separation has melted away. The fear of feeling separated had me holding on for years and created a lot of struggle.

While I was still flying for United and I was in Perth on my vacation, I was walking on the beach one day and feeling the bliss from being here. Suddenly I started to sob as I asked myself why I was denying myself from living here when I loved being by the ocean so much and actually could return if I would choose that…

I had a whole lot of reasons. It wasn’t until I started to work with Nalini after I had left the airlines that it became clear how many limiting programs I had running which prevented me from having what my heart desired.

To the degree I was holding out from fully surrendering into Source as Source, whatever I was creating was influenced by wanting something, thereby keeping the sense of being separate from that in place, resulting in mixed results when it came to manifesting.

Just check for yourself.  As long as you want something, it feels as if it is outside of you, out of reach, right?
Whereas desiring something feels like calling it forth from within by being aware you already have this and this is creating as Source, calling forth from the oneness. Like magic, calling it into creation as the Creator you are.

Are you holding yourself back from your heart’s desires out of fear that you’ll leave others behind?…

Where are you holding yourself back from fully embodying the Divinity you are?
From owning your brilliance out of fear that your light might shine so bright it would blind those you love and hence you’d lose them…or be judged… or…
Defending your smallness… thereby denying the Divinity you are…

Where are you hesitating to BE the Divinity you are, to create AS Source?

If there are any fears of the consequences of you actually having what you say you desire then you’re still plugged into programs which keep you believing in and invested in separation.
You know that acronym for EGO? edging god out…
Not the God religions fight over or justify killing for. That’s the egoic version of God. I am talking about the truth of what God is… Source.. The All That Is… Divinity… Creator…

Would Source deny herself anything she loves, she desires? Would She deny herself love? Vibrant wellbeing?

So why would you?…

Just last night during the Great Mother Temple call with Nalini I felt a tether being released. A failsafe, like a safety net, saying: “If I am other than Divine then there is still something to rescue me. I want to be separate from Source because that way I am safe.”

Amazing how some of these beliefs can keep us hostage, isn’t it?

And how liberating when set free!

Have you experienced anything similar or has reading this stirred up something? I’d love you to leave a comment and share your insights.

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

It’s time to clear out the mental cobwebs and dust off your yoga mat!

Join me for a Spring Cleaning Challenge on GaiamTV.com

Enjoy 14 days of yoga and meditation videos to help you dive headfirst into spring with renewed vitality!
Sign up for your free trial to get started here: http://bit.ly/SpringCleanGaiam

Starting Monday April 15th, the Gaiam Team and people just like you, from all over the world, are joining in from their living rooms.
You can start this anytime. However, by joining in with us you’ll be surfing on the wave of our combined energy and intentions. And who knows… you might feel so inspired that you want to continue beyond these 14 days.

I just dusted off my yoga mat a few days ago to get in the spirit of this again and I am looking forward to sharing this rejuvenating journey with you!

I’ll be posting my experiences of the daily yoga videos and the meditations in the evening, as well as the movie nights. Yep, feeding your body, mind and soul;)

I will also post a list of the daily videos here so you can download it as easy reference guide and… you can use this as a way to check off after each activity you committed to.

You know how easy it can be to find excuses as to why you might skip today… so this will really help you stay committed. Will you join me?

If you have been waiting to get into action, NOW is as a good a time as any to renew your commitment to your well-being and move your body into radiance.

When you join, you will receive a 10 day free trial and after that it is only $9,95 a month to have unlimited access to the amazing collection of videos, which includes way more than just yoga and meditation, as you will soon discover.

So… what are you waiting for? Click here now and I’ll see you on Monday.

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

The creative juices have been flowing at quite a pace these last few weeks. It’s as if I have come out of a deep integration period and everything has shifted, now ready to be expressed and shared.

So it happened that last Friday the Innerdelight Joy Tribe let me know that she wanted her own page on Facebook. So symbolic. Time to close down the old page with much gratitude. Ready for a new playing field.
Your playground for conscious co-creation so that you can claim the life your heart desires with infinite love, light, effervescent joy and ease.

A few days prior to this launch, I witnessed the most amazing sunset I have seen in a long time.
The colors were breathtaking and it felt as if I was being bathed in this down pouring of Divine love with all those shades of magenta.

Since then the bubbles of effervescent joy have been playing with me and I suddenly heard:
“Wherever you go, always bring your ID with you… your Inner Delight” and then these giggles, like hearing cherubs or Tinkerbell!

FUN… it’s the name of the game in these new playing fields, this new earth we are all co-creating.

With all the energy shifts of the last few years, we have moved into a time of instant manifestation, or near enough. Which makes it extra important to be aware that you always have a choice.

Will you choose consciously and let your actions be aligned with your intentions? In other words, will your actions match your words?

Or will you let your automatic pilot, your habits, the way you have always done things stay in charge?

What if you were to hand it ALL over to the Divine, to Source, giving permission for all attachments to your old story, the script which you have been playing out until now, to be uncreated, all the way back to source?
Don’t worry, you get to keep all the wisdom gained!

Setting your Self free and opening to the infinite possibilities available for you now, if you will but declare and claim them.

Surfing the wave of the New Moon today, what an excellent time to get really clear on what truly matters to you.
And to release everything else.

That’s what I have been ‘doing’ and it feels so good.

Stay tuned for an exciting opportunity to join me and many others around the world for a 14 day Spring Cleanse yoga and meditation challenge.

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Sync with your infinite Self, the YOU that is your unique expression of Divinity.

You are not separate from YOU, as much as your mind might tell you otherwise

Do you think that YOU are limited in any way?
That YOU are lacking in anything?

Do you think YOU have access to ALL of YOU?
Therefore have access to everything you desire, right NOW?

Yes, that old cliche that everything you desire is already inside you…
you just have to align with it.

Or, another way to put it:  you just have to sync with YOU.

Anytime you are experiencing fear, anxiety, worry, doubt… you have simply disconnected from YOU.
Simply plug back in, just as you would plug in the chord of your ipod to your computer to synchronize all the files.

Just imagine for a moment that YOU are the computer, the Source Databank, fully connected with the playing field of infinite potential, where anything is possible.

Where anything can be created because you have access to everything.

Now… are you willing to plug into YOU and allow ALL of your database to be synchronized with the Source Databank?

As all of your data – the stories, the memories, the feelings, the beliefs, the rules, the agreements, the vows, the conditioning, ALL of it – is being synchronized with the infinite BEing you truthfully are, everything which is not aligned with that is simply erased,deleted, dissolved. Gone.

• All the ways you had amnesia, forgetting who YOU really are…gone.
• All the limitations you were held back by… gone.
• All the pretending to be less than you really are… gone.
• All the ways you ever denied yourself the magnificence of YOU… gone.
• All the ways you pretended you were separate from the Divinity you are…gone.
• All the failsafe mechanisms which kept you small and disconnected from the truth of YOU… gone.
• All the ways you ever hoarded anything just in case you might need it someday…gone.
• All excess baggage- emotionally, physically, mentally- … gone.

All systems optimized, functioning at love speed, plugged into Infinite Database.

Now… are you ready to own the magnificence of the infinite BEingness YOU are?

What would you like to create now, having access to absolutely anything and everything in these playing fields of infinite possibilities?

If this brings up any hesitation, just check your chord into YOU.
You might have gotten unplugged and disconnected before the full synchronization was complete.

Simply ‘Click to Sync’ once again and allow the process to complete.
The first time might take a little while as ALL your corrupt files have to be deleted.
You can stay plugged in 24/7, allowing synchronization to occur in real time.

It may just take your mind a few reminders that this is really possible now.
So just in case you notice you got unplugged, simply re-connect, Click to Sync and allow yourself to be fully aligned with the Divinity you are!

Oh, and another SYNChronicity… The image for the syncing jumped out at me and as I was writing this, I syddenly saw one of the beautiful Aura Soma bottles… same colors…

it is called Open Sesame and is about the depths of wisdom being expressed in a whole new way… to be expressed through the heart… when love and the truth of power are one, it is often referred to as feminine leadership. Where the power of love has transformed the love of power, which was more accurately force and suppressed wisdom.

Time to choose…

Have fun and happy creating;)

to be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Have you ever asked yourself that question?
Whether in regards to a relationship, your business, enrolling in a business program or any other area of your life?

During a recent Great Mother gathering with Nalini, the question was posed:
“If it were possible to now release and uncreate all attachments ( mostly unconscious) to pain and suffering… would you?”

That means letting go of all the disappointments, grudges, resentments, the whole enchilada which kept you plugged into the old paradigm of suffering, driven by control and domination.

Really, if you could give Source, the Divine, the Great Mother ( or whatever name you like to use for the Oneness) carte blanche to wipe out all the records, memories, imprints, agreements and whatever else had you holding on to it all,
would you?

I said: “Absolutely YES!”

Now, I thought I’d said that before but… there was a little glitch that had to be resolved for this to truly be possible. Besides the fact that I’d thought I had given HER permission.

That glitch? It surfaced while I was doing a ‘Dissolving the Matrix’ process on Tuesday and my unconscious definitions of Source and the cocoon of transformation were brought into the light.
Needless to say, they included quite a few distortions which were really not supporting me.

It just so happened that during the Matrix call with Nalini later that day the theme revolved around releasing all attachments to pain and suffering, as well as releasing the hatred for the Divine Mother.

That tied in with being willing to surrender all resentment, pain and the disappointments from having ever felt let down by Source. As well as all agreements to suffer as a sacrifice to… well, to what exactly?!
All the misperceptions of what Source is…

So being willing to release everything all of that called forth. The feelings of betrayal, having been deceived, being led around the garden path, disillusioned and so forth.

As this matrix dissolved I was shown that the way out of it all was to embody the truth AS Source.

I had initially said: “To embody the truth of Source.”
Then Nalini pointed out that this still implied separation and was a darn good attempt by my spiritualized ego to stay in control.

So… what does this have to do with the question: “Why would everything be different now?”
And how do you know this is true, even when outer appearances seem to be the same?

Once you let go of what I mentioned before and allow Source to clear out all the records and memories of this stored anywhere, in all of time and in all dimensions, then the habits which were based on this no longer have any juice.
You may still find yourself reacting out of habit if something doesn’t immediately work out the way you’d intended. However, you can now choose to be aware it is simply a habit and hand that over to Source to be transformed as well.

I can report that something amazing happens once this has shifted.

You know those new playing fields you may have heard people speaking of? Some call it the New Earth.
These are a new world in which to create as Source, free from all limitations, where anything is possible.

That is what makes things different now!

We don’t have a reference point for that because, as Nalini says, all reference points are now obsolete, all we have now is a reference flow.

Some things may still SEEM to look the same, however, the energy underneath it has shifted. Which explains why doing things the ‘old’ way simply won’t work in this new vibrational field.

A couple of weeks ago I started to feel the stirring within of something new wanting to be birthed.
The new Delphic Wave Trinity series started and this week’s transmission happened to address manifesting as the light that I am.
This week everything is different. First the Matrix gathering, then the Great Mother gathering and then the Trinity transmissions…

The floodgates of inspiration opened. I picked up the really fun Business Goddess course with Leonie Dawson, which I had joined last year but had not really participated in, and wowzie… answering the questions in the e-course, which had just started, woke something up in me!

I also joined a wonderful coaching program this week and have partnered with some phenomenal coaches to bring out the best in one another.

“All of a sudden” I had the clarity to questions I simply could not answer even a month ago.

Whenever anyone asked me the then dreaded question: “So, what do you do?”, it was as if my vocabulary had disappeared!

Now it felt as if I had this huge blank canvas to create anything that I fancied on, free from those previous self-imposed limitations.

As I said, letting go of all attachments to pain and disappointments, including those related to the Divine, was my ticket to fully enter these new playing fields.

Now, if I had held on, then joining these programs with the unconscious expectation of them being ‘just another program’, then I can assure you I would not have stepped out of my old comfort zone, despite consciously choosing otherwise.

I was afraid that if I let it all go that I would also lose everything I had loved.

The truth? Everything I loved has been optimized and what remained is what is truly aligned with me and makes my heart sing.

Having time on the beach and in the ocean pretty much daily these last weeks has been tremendously nurturing for me. Being held in the water, I feel my body physically surrendering to Source, releasing all memories of separation from Her as if they are washed away and marveling at the joy of playing in the waves in this huge pool.

So can you imagine my excitement when I sat at the beach yesterday and this BIG vision of Innerdelight showed itself to me? I got most of it on paper today and will be sorting them out to implement, with support.

Surprise, surprise… it all evolves around…. JOY!

And I will soon be launching the new signature program:

The Innerdelight BUT Buster Program.

For conscious women entrpreneurs who are ready to release all their (un)conscious limitations to expanding their Divinely aligned business and infusing their lives with effervescent joy.

Delicious, right?

Isn’t it time to get off your BUT’s? More about this soon:)

Wishing you a wonder-filled weekend.

to be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Just a few days ago I was still walking through the snow in snowboots… then the Joy Sprinkle Trail led me to sunny Australia. I experienced bliss when diving into the beautiful Indian ocean again after 4 years. My goodness, how I had missed that deep blue water… and how deeply it rejuvenates me.

Along with that joyful experience, I was also confronted by a very different reunion with my mum than I had hoped for.
Having gone through so many transformations over the last few years and having let go of so many fixed programs, I was taken for a spin when I realized that there were still a few stubborn hold outs in my physical and emotional body. Nothing like being with family to trigger those deeply anchored body imprints, implants and conditioning.

‎“The pain lies in the difference of what we think should happen and what actually happens.”Vernon Howard

Much to my initial dismay, I discovered my physical and emotional bodies still held some expectations of what being a daughter entailed, what a mother’s role is and how I had expected to be welcomed after quite a few years away…

None of which matched the experience I was having!

The warmth and support I have been blessed to share with and receive from my friends over the last few years has become the ‘norm’ for me. Feeling completely loved and cherished for who I am and free to be me.
When I had invited everyone for a ‘goodbye for now’ party at a local cafe the weekend before I flew out, one of my dear friends called me and asked me if I would please allow her to host the party at her home, as her gift to me. The same friend who had invited me to stay at her home when my Joy Sprinkle Trail launched last summer and who welcomed me into her family as one of them.

Being surrounded by so many amazing people whom I love and who love me, was quite an emotional experience. The love was tangible in that room and everyone commented how moved they had been by being present there that day.

Knowing that love is eternal and we are connected no matter where we are in the world, it was still one of the hardest things for me to let go of being in the same physical location as my family of friends. Not knowing when we will hug again…

I have quite a few amazing friends all over the world, some of us haven’t met in person yet, however, the heart connection between us all is so deep, so strong, that this is what has often sustained me through challenging times.

Feeling so supported I was even blessed with a most wonderful lady at the airline check-in who turned a blind eye to my slightly over the weight limit suitcase…

I kept expressing my gratitude to the Divine Mother for holding me in the Heartspace and for all the love and support on my way.

The flight via Kuala Lumpur was super comfortable and I had a lovely seat partner so the time flew by.
Even the tail wind was cooperating as the flight times were shorter than scheduled.

Going through immigation and customs was a breeze with the new scanning facilities so I was out in the arrivals area within 20 minutes of landing.

Wow… in the flow, right? So where was my mum?…

Turns out she had been stuck in traffic  for 20 minutes and by the time she arrived we could go straight to the car and didn’t even have to pay for parking. Before too long we were at my mum’s place and I could have a shower to wash off the flight.

So what’s the problem, you might be thinking?…

A week or so before I flew out, I was talking with her and had said that I really wanted to go the beach to dive into the ocean as soon as I had dropped off my bags and had a shower. She told me she had a very busy schedule that day and wouldn’t be able to bring me but that I could go the next day.

That would have been ok for many other things, however, I had missed the ocean so much that I really wanted to gift myself with a dive in her waters to land in Australia, symbolically and physically. If she couldn’t bring me then I would find another solution. If I had to take a taxi, then so be it.

This wasn’t well received and the conversation which followed had almost made me want to cancel the flight.

Alas, I figured it would shift by the time I’d be there and the morning after our call, I received a message that my mum had asked the neighbour if she would come to the beach with me and she had said she’d be happy to.

When I arrived in Oz, my mum told me on the drive home that something had come up and the neighbour couldn’t take me to the beach but that I could go in the monring.

So… I took a moment to feel what I would most like to do and I immediately felt the inner negotiator about to settle… as well as a very loud: GO TO THE BEACH!

I chose to honor my Self and called a taxi to take me to the beach. Was it worth it? Heck yes! Definitely one of the things that brings me great joy.

The next few days I listened to several of the audios in the Delphic Wave Embodying Fluidity program, again. In particular the ‘Clearing Genetic Patterning’ as well as the ‘Understanding and Clearing Archetypal Patterning’. Nothing like being in the presence of those who hold the patterning which was genetically passed down to you to observe if there is anything still holding on or playing out…

Another layer shifted and I felt my body release the disappointments, the sadness, the feelings of having being abandoned emotionally and whatever else was being absorbed by the cocoon, the cosmic laundry service…

This morning I woke up and felt something had been released from my core. The energy between my mum and me felt light hearted and I no longer felt triggered. I could see her for who she is and accept how she chooses to express herself.

I don’t feel the same kind of heart connection with her as I do with my best friends. That is what had saddened me upon arrival as I experienced a big gap and it had felt very cold and distant. I do love her, though. As long as I accept her as she is,  I can connect and laugh with her and enjoy time spent with her.

Amazing how those expectations

can trip us up, isn’t it?

Throughout the past week, while I was ‘working’ with the Embodying Fluidity audios, I retreated to the beach so as to allow these programs to be transformed and to honor my own energy alignment.

The one thing I know I can count on is my Source connection. Sustaining that alignment is made so much easier for me when I spend time in nature.

And isn’t it interesting that as I honor my alignment and allow Source to optimize it how quickly ‘external’ circumstances can shift…

So how about you? What brings YOU your greatest joy?

What are the things you can be woken up for? That light your fire? That bring a smile to your face which simply won’t go away…

And to what degree does any part of you believe you have to do something to earn or deserve that kind of joy?

And when or with whom do you find yourself wanting to settle for less than what feels optimal for you, so as not to have others call you selfish? Thereby denying your Self and disconnecting from Source…

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

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]]> http://www.innerdelight.com/wp/how-i-sustain-my-joy-even-when-challenges-arise/feed/ 4 http://www.innerdelight.com/wp/if-your-soul-were-to-play-piano-for-you/ http://www.innerdelight.com/wp/if-your-soul-were-to-play-piano-for-you/#comments Fri, 25 Jan 2013 05:11:46 +0000 Tina http://www.innerdelight.com/wp/?p=974 If your soul were to play piano for you, what would that sound like?

Well, I recently had the pleasure of receiving a musical soul journey with Silvia Dragt and Reina Oversteeg in the Netherlands. I had heard about the beautiful work they do together and was excited about having the chance to experience this live before going to Oz.

A few years ago I was in France and met David Bailey in Rennes le Chateau. He would ask your name and then moments later start playing what your soul was saying. It moved me to tears.
Turns out that Silvia had also met David and this had inspired her to start playing the piano intuitively.
Reina is a wonderful channel for Source and one of her gifts is reading someone’s energy and putting that into words.
When the two of them join together, something magical happens.

While Silvia plays the piano, Reina writes the messages she receives and wouldn’t you know it?… The music and messages are a perfect match.

The audio tracks were recorded and put on a CD, the messages typed out and both were sent to me so that I can listen to and read this gift from my Soul to me, via Silvia and Reina, again and again. Guess what the tracks were called?
Sparkle of Joy, Love, The Essence and Free.

How is that for a confirmation?!

The music and messages can support someone in their transformational journey and are also offered long distance. The beauty of technology, right?

To give you a sense of what these sessions are like, we recorded my Musical Soul Journey. I am happy to share it with you and give you a glimpse of what my soul was expressing.
So… sit back and enjoy the next 38 minutes.

Click here to view the embedded video.

I’d love to read your comments on how this felt for you. And if you’d like to have your own musical message from your soul, whether for your personal journey or for your business, then you can contact Silvia and Reina at  http://magictones.nl

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Chrysalis by Toni Carmine Salerno

You can imagine… being able to tap into your inner database and being able to access all the definitions of love you have ever bought into, agreed to and lived by…
What if you were able to dump ALL the contents of this database into the cosmic laundry service to be transformed? What if everything you ever believed about love which is NOT truth were now optimized so that you can experience the TRUTH of what LOVE is?

Would you do it? Are you willing? Are you ready?

 As the Joy Sprinkle Trail is about to take me Down Under to Australia to see my family again after 4 years, I have been pondering what this experience will be like after all the transformations I have gone through lately. I am no longer the person I was when I left there, even though the outside may appear to be similar.

When I recently saw how love to me had meant it would eventually lead to betrayal, whether being betrayed or being the betrayer, and how feeling betrayed by Source had held me in a bind to not really trust Spirit without conditions, something in my core let go.

It feels like that was the part in me holding on so tightly so as not to be hurt again, that it also kept out the one thing I had been intending to be ONE with for what feels like forever: my Self, my unique expression of Source.
I could also see how this pattern had been passed down through my family bloodline.

As long as I held a grudge about having been let down, abandoned, betrayed or whatever names I’d care to give it in any particular moment, it was impossible to really let in ( or out )  the love I am. To receive my Self, Source, fully.

It also became very clear to me how the many (unconscious) rules, agreements and conditions I had lived by for so long had kept me imprisoned by their limitations, all in the name of supposed safety so as to survive! It had me try to fit in, adapt myself to what was expected of me by others ( or what I thought they expected of me) and so often supposedly in the name of love.

In truth, this was sacrifice and martyrdom.

In the last paradigm we have now exited ( thank the goddess!!), this was all part of the game. The more you sacrificed yourself, the more brownie points you scored… but the question is: by WHO?

For me, honoring my Self and being true to the Divinity I am, meant letting go of caring what others think of me. I don’t know about you but for me this was a tough cookie to release.

All the beliefs that this made me selfish and uncaring came up, that it made me cold and hard, that it was not spiritual and that it would mean the end of my existence. And that’s just mentioning a few!

The cosmic joke is that for 15 years as a flight attendant I can’t even remember how many times I said to put on your own oxygen mask before helping others. I even used this example on numerous occassions with friends and clients to bring across the point of how important it is to care for your SELF before you even attempt to reach out to others.

The moment I asked Source to take it ALL and I meant it, love and support have started to show up in the most amazing ways. It is probably more accurate to say that it was there all along and that I allowed myself to open up to RECEIVING it fully. All while discerning what feels good and leaving out what might be pretending to love and support me as the Divinity I am.

It feels like the Divine loving Herself through me, as me.

Now, I have heard those words many times and yet… they didn’t fully reach my core while that love=support=betrayal bug was in my software.

With that removed and dissolved with much gratitude for all the support from Nalini from www.delphicwave.com ,
I am now starting to experience the wonder of what I am as through the eyes of a child… in innocence and joy, marveling at the sparkling light flowing through me and perceiving how it plays in the field of infinite creations, interacting with others and guiding me with joy sprinkles.

Every day I am discovering new ways to cherish the light I am and allowing myself to be cherished as that. I am finding that the body sometimes still reverts to the old mode, like being on auto pilot, and yet the moment I am aware of that, I thank Source for taking that,too, and for showing me and my body how it can flow and be in this new playing field with grace and ease.

I have noticed how the judgments and inner critic melt in the Presence of Love. So I give thanks for the return to my Self, embodying the Divinity I am, for being shown the truth of what love is and letting that inform every cell in my body. Rejuvenation takes on a whole new meaning…

What a grand love story… available for every one of us now. Will you share yours?

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2013 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.