What If Your Boundaries Are Like Swiss Cheese?

16. November 2012 · Write a comment · Categories: energy clearing · Tags: , , , ,

As delicious as Swiss cheese is to eat, when your energy field looks like Emmentaler it may be time to review your definitions of healthy boundaries :)

So… how do you know if this may be the case? And, more importantly, what can you do about it?

If your inner database contains mixed definitions of what healthy boundaries are then you may find yourself in a bit of a double bind. Especially when these are held in your unconscious and hence outside of your awareness.
Fortunately, or not, whatever we have stored in our (un)concsious database is reflected back to us in our daily living.

One of the things I have noticed within myself and many others along the way, is that when one is on a supposed spiritual path, then there can be the tendency to believe you have to be open and be an energy transmuter for everything and everyone… a belief that you have to take on other people’s energy to transmute it for them when they are having a hard time, for example. This mostly occurs unconsciously….

This, by the way, was part of the job description for being a rescuer…and can also be recognized by any of the following:

  • You find it much easier to give than to receive
  • Saying NO to others can make you want to squirm
  • You’d rather betray your Self than risk disappointing someone else
  • People love being in your presence and feel rejuvenated after time spent with you while you may find yourself exhausted
  • You have a tendency to take on more than you can handle ( because heaven forbid that you say NO!) and then push yourself to get it all done, even if this means you’ll burn out
  • You have a fear that if you choose to be true to your Self that others may find you selfish and you’ll end up all alone
  • You’re naturally able to feel what others are experiencing and can tend to pick up other people’s feelings or even physical symptoms, no longer clear on what is yours and what belongs to others
  • Your shoulders are probably pretty tight from carrying all those extra burdens which were never yours to carry

I am sure you can add plenty of other variations to the above… but really, what if it all comes down to (part of) you wanting to feel needed and in control?

I mean, who would you be without the role of the rescuer, the savior, the one who everyone can count on to be there 24/7 ?

Well… from my personal experience I can tell you my answer to that question is: FREE. Free to be who I am.
It took me a while to get here! And redefining boundaries has been of the utmost importance. It brought up a truckload of outdated agreements and beliefs which had held me hostage in limitations of which I had not been aware but which had been sabotaging me left, right and center.

So… what are healthy boundaries to you?
And why have boundaries when we are all connected in the Oneness?

This is a matter of discernment and recognizing that not everything nor everyone is energetically aligned or optimal for your unique resonance. Just like all music is composed of sounds in different harmonies, you are not going to resonate or relate to all music. What may feel rejuvenating or nurturing to one person, can feel like having a hammer banged on the head by someone else.

Boundaries are often confused with putting up walls or barriers, which require defending.

This can show up in your life as letting people or things reach a certain limit and then you block them out as you retreat to recharge. Or you may find yourself defending your decision to say NO to something or someone.

Healthy boundaries are like the membranes around a cell; they are transparent and when they are healthy, they allow in what nurtures the cell and keep out anything which is not optimal for the wellbeing.

As there is so much to ‘monitor’ while we move throughout the planetary collective soup, it would be pretty much impossible to consciously select what to let in and what to keep out.
Many healers have carried with them lifetimes of training to take the energies into their bodies or energy fields and transmute them, often to the detriment of their own wellbeing. This may be so deeply imbedded that to let this agreement be released can feel like breaking a vow.

What if you were to hand it all over the Divine? And what if you allowed Source to inform you of the truth of boundaries?

This is precisely what happens when you allow the Heartspace to navigate you throughout your days. I first experienced the initation into the Heartspace with Mary Nalini Macnab in 2010. Since then I have been blessed to experience many more of the Delphic Wave initiations, each one taking this deeper into my beingness. Just the other day I realized that I still had a few tiny holdouts which were preventing me from fully surrendering to the Divine. It was connected to trusting Her completely. When Nalini invited me to jump into the Great Mother’s arms and allow myself to be held there, I felt those strands dissolve and a deep inner knowing that the one thing I can count on for sure is Her.

Being held in the Heartspace feels to me like being held in the arms of Source. Here I can relax and allow my Self to BE. Knowing that my unique vibrational signature, my soul sound, magnetizes to me those people and events which are aligned with my divine essence and… in the event anything not in alignment were to come in, then it is transformed, optimized or otherwise handled by Source… the optimal boundary ‘manager’!

If this resonates with you, then I can highly recommend starting out with the Delphic wave audio ‘Molding the Mystical Container’, which initiates you into this Heartspace gift from the Divine. This is part of the Embodying Fluidity program.

I’d love to hear about your insights and experiences with boundaries. Please share this post with your friends. This is super easy via one of the social media buttons below :) Thanks!

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Freedom and Grace on the Joy Sprinkle Trail

17. August 2012 · 6 comments · Categories: energy clearing · Tags: , , , ,

I am celebrating today! How is this for grace? Over the last 4 weeks almost all my wordly belongings have been sold or given away. I am sitting in one of the chairs in which many sessions have been given over the years… and both these chairs have been bought as well, however, couldn’t be picked up until tomorrow. So I have a chair to sit in until the moment I move out! And an aerobed to sleep on until tomorrow.

This reality clearance sale has been amazing. The support along the way has been phenomenal. And the freedom I am experiencing is unlike any I have ever known or can recall…
The moment I made the choice to let everything go and to really align with my Divine Agenda, the infusion of grace has gone on love speed;)

Being new moon today and this being an excellent time to plant new seeds… and hence to declare intentions for the coming month… I am feeling the infinite possibilities with all this space. The space from clearing out my physical life and the transformations of so many inner programs. It feels like a big blank canvas!

People ask me: “So, what are you going to be doing now?”
To which I reply: “I have no idea yet. I am following the joy sprinkles and am enjoying the freedom and grace which accompany me on this trail.”

Apart from having bought train tickets to go to France on September 6th and intending to be back in Holland for the Opera Familia theater concert tour in November and after that going to Australia, I have no set plans. That’s exactly it… no fixed dates or plans. Things somehow seem to optimally unfold in each moment and I feel so held and guided… this is effortless and fun;)

If I were to come up with a new title for myself then I’d probably choose: Joy Ambassador.
And what that entails? That is to be revealed as I continue on this joy sprinkle trail.

I’m moving out tomorrow and have been invited to stay at a friend’s place. Another magical and grace-filled invitation… she has 2 other guests at the moment and when I met them today, my heart did a happy dance!
Two sweet kittens!


Aaaahhh… I was visiting another friend a few days ago and she happened to have 3 little kittens for a few weeks and they captured my heart. To now be with these other kittens is a gift of grace;)

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

 

 

Reality Clearance Sale To Freedom

13. August 2012 · 6 comments · Categories: energy clearing · Tags: , , , , , ,

Three weeks ago I was sitting at my dining table and suddenly I had this urge to start posting most of my furniture on a Dutch site similar to e-bay. The decision to move from my apartment had been made and I had a month to clear out my place…  I  realized it was time for a reality clearance sale!
As this move felt so divinely supported, I also felt everything would be supported by grace and ease…

So… I took some pictures and posted the ads. Within hours I started getting emails and phonecalls. I was amazed! Next thing I knew I had sold the first bookcase and that meant I had to take out all the books in a hurry.

Oh my goddess… this was starting to feel very,very real, very, very fast!

It also happened to be right in the middle of the last segment of the Trinity gatherings with Mary Nalini MacNab from Delphic Wave, which happened to be all about acknowledging and receiving;) Embodiment of oneness…
When the first cupboard was picked up I felt elated and this continued over the next few weeks. As every item was released I felt this wave of freedom and yesterday the last ‘big’ item was sold: my bed.

So I am now sitting in my very spacious living room on a deck chair and will be sleeping on an aerobed for the next week as the last bits and pieces are cleared out and the boxes of what remains go into temporary storage.

I feel so deliciously free and expansive…

I have moved so many times over the years and all over the world. And yet this time it feels different.
Perhaps it is the most conscious move as of yet and by that I mean that I have held every item I owned in my hands and felt if it still resonated with me or not.
Like going through my wardrobe with the help of my dearest friend Carla. With every item I held up, she’d nod yes or no. If it was a ‘no’, which was most of it, then it went into a bag to go to charity. Right down to the jeans I was wearing which had recently ripped yet which fit so snug… into the bag they went and leaving me with just one pair of yoga pants!

The joy and liberation I felt when bringing these bags to the charity containers…
and then the magic started to amp up…

My friend had some brand new jeans which she wasn’t going to be wearing and asked if I wanted to try them on. They fit like a glove and so I received 2 pairs of new jeans within hours of giving most of my clothes away.

I received invitations to go out for dinner with friends and ate out in the most fabulous restaurants almost every night for a week, celebrating, while to all outer appearances it seemed my life was falling apart.

While experiencing all of this I also had a huge clash with the landlord for a week…

Receiving threats and being harrassed which turned out to be a huge gift. The fear of being annihilated was literally being released from my body. The confrontations intensified over a period of 5 days with my body shaking as if being physically attacked.
I was aware that this was not just from the current situation but that didn’t comfort me while in the heat of it.

I’d handed it over to Kali to deal with it while I proceeded to get legal advice and took the action steps required. This was really calling on me to stand in my truth and power.
It just so happened that throughout this intensification I had another starseed activation upgrade and along with the Trinity integration, everything in my system which had been resisting or attempting to keep out my light was being transformed and optimized.

The brighter my light was shining, the angrier the landlord seemd to get! That’s when Nalini reminded me that when Kali optimizes any situation in your life that she also optimizes you;) So this intensification was a very good ‘sign’ in a way, even though I can say it felt veeeeeeery uncomfortable.

The good news was that this was clearing things at such a deep level and so fast ( that’s goddess optimal!) that this emotional tsunami subsided within 5 days and after the weekend it was as if I was speaking with a different person.
By now the fear was gone. I knew it was really gone when I saw him and his wife a few days later and there was no more physical reaction in my body. Just peace and light. Like this magical sky…

Now the countdown is on to wrap things up and move by the weekend. I have stopped announcing plans and instead share the update of the moment with my friends and family. With things changing and shifting so fast, it’s like the weather forecast;)

So… today’s status has me enjoying a few more soaks in the bathtub before I hand back the keys and then going to stay with friends. I thought I would be on my way to Oz as soon as I moved but… the joy sprinkle trail is nudging me to go visit some friends in France first. Welcome to the freedom ride!

To be continued…

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

When Your Mojo And Money Are On Vacation

01. July 2012 · Write a comment · Categories: energy clearing · Tags: , , , , ,

Have you ever noticed how sometimes, if you don’t take time out, then circumstances can take care of it for you?…

Last week it felt like my mojo had gone on vacation… perhaps you have had this experience at one point or another as well…
From one day to the next, nothing seemed to feel joyful to me anymore. Now, my passions may have changed their intensity levels over the years but there was always something which made me sparkle from within, even if not all at the same time. This felt different, though.

I even started writing about it but got no further than the title! And then I thought I’d delete a certain plug-in and…a ‘fatal error’ message appeared on the screen and I was no longer able to access the dashboard nor this site. Just like that.
I thought for a moment that everything had vanished into the ethers and let out a deep sigh as I surrendered.

So with my mojo on vacation and being unable to access this site, I wondered what was about to emerge out of this.

It also happened to coincide with almost no money coming in, while rent and bills are due, and having no clue as to how this would resolve itself.

Perhaps you can imagine how this might trigger the deepest survival programs and put the inner controller in freak-out mode… not exactly optimal states of being to attract money nor business…

Last week was, as Nalini from Delphic Wave says, ‘crunchy’. That is a mild way to describe how it felt for me.
I made a commitment a while ago to choose for living a fully Source directed life. That has called for releasing any and all egoic programming… the most deeply ingrained ones driven by a need to control… everything which has kept limitations in place and had me deny my Self in any way. In other words, anything and everything which prevented the light that I am to fully be embodied in this body.

This called for shifting deeply held unconscious agreements and inherited patterning through the bloodline, soul families and any tribal agreements. And so it felt as if I was dying, as if the contents of me were all removed, leaving me in a state of limbo for a few days… neither here nor there…

And then Friday, something new clicked into place…

It felt like a new operating system was installed and even though, from the outer appearance, things might look the same, from within everything has shifted. I perceive things in a whole new way, as if seeing beyond the physical form into this field where everything is fluid.

You can imagine it might be rather odd to look at someone and see their body and at the same time perceive their fluid form and where it is or is not yet integrated in the body. I have never taken psychadelic drugs but from what I have heard others say about their experiences, it sounds similar to this;)

Now it also feels as if my mojo has undergone a transformation and is yet to share with me what it is about.

I feel great joy when perceiving this fluid field… everything feels connected and sparkly. And then I see the structured forms of many things in this world and it feels dead compared to this fluid state. Switching back and forth… and every time I switch it’s as if  some of the sparkles of the fluid state are infused into the denser forms.

So now what would happen if more of us were to consciously do this with money?…

Look at money or imagine you have some here right now and notice how you feel…. then tap into the fluid field, beyond the form, and perceive the light… switch back to your money and notice how you feel… then back into the fluid field… as often as you feel like or until you feel your money is glowing with light and feels light…

Just prior to writing this, I was talking with Nicola from 5D Diaries, and we thought we’d start a little experiment together. We’ll be sharing more about that later. Funny enough, from that conversation I can already feel the power of what we have set in motion… the above exercise was just received as I was writing and I just got a message from Nicola that she had some other downloads;)

Wow, the power of coming together with an intention to shift!

By the way, the audios which have been of tremendous value for me in shifting these fixed positions, are available in the membership area of Delphic Wave’s Embodying Fluidity. I can highly, highly recommend these. In fact, I am listening to the ‘Clearing Bloodline and Genetic Patterns’ as well as ‘Releasing Symptom-causing Patterns’ almost daily and on some days more than once. And then there are the ‘Shifting From The Heart’ and the ‘Shifting Core Essence~ Releasing Core Imprinting’ audios… and several others which I feel are essential for shifting through these times with grace.

I’d be very curious to hear how any of this might resonate with you and what your experiences are with the exercise… you can apply this to anything ofcourse, not just money.

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Don’t Worry, Be Happy ~ TAT Online Retreat

16. June 2012 · Write a comment · Categories: clearing fear, energy clearing

 

Remember that song? Don’t worry, be happy;)
For most people this is easier said than done…

I’m sure you already know that whenever you find yourself worrying or fretting about anything, you are allowing your precious energy to be wasted.
Either wasting away by holding on to something or someone in your past… or projecting your (un)conscious fears or limitations on to your future.
Either way, you are not allowing yourself the gift of being fully present in the now.
And that is costing you your joy and happiness.

If you happen to be providing support to others, then my question for you is:
Are you allowing yourself to receive support on a regular basis?

So many coaches, healers, mums and spiritualpreneurs are brilliant at giving.
And yet when it comes to taking time out for themselves to be recharged?

I have been a part of Mary Nalini MacNab’s online programs for the past 2 years and I can’t even begin to describe the value and power of those group gatherings.
Everyone who shares has a way of bringing exactly that piece into awareness which I may not have brought up and so there is lots of golden wisdom in the groups.
I love this sacred time together and urge you to gift yourself with this kind of support.

If you would like to experience this kind of support by being part of a group during the upcoming summer, then I have great news for you!

I am facilitating a 6 week online summer retreat to transform whatever:

  • has been causing you the greatest distress
  • has been keeping you (un)consciously holding on to limitations,
  • has held your energy hostage in the past,
  • zapped your enthusiasm for life
  • has kept your dreams on hold for some day…

In other words, 6 weeks of being guided through energy alignment sessions to stop worrying and be happy NOW. 

And all from the comfort of your own home or wherever you use the internet.

How is that for a summer holiday with a difference? ;)

The effects often feel like having been on a great holiday or like you had a great yoga class, a deep meditation or a wonderful bodywork session…. however, all that’s required is for you to gently touch a few points on your face and back of head.
I’ll be guiding you through the sessions so you can relax.

The added benefit is that you will discover how you can use this technique on your own so you can apply it anytime, anywhere by yourself.

Whether you have something come up in your life you’d like to transform… or whether you would like to align with your infinite Self… or super charge yourself with an infusion of love and light… It quickly brings you back into the now, to enjoy the present of being Present;)

Starting next week, on Thursday June 21st, for six weeks. There are even several payment plan options available for you to make this super easy to attend.

This is the new format for the TAT (Tapas Acupressure Technique) Basics workshop.
It’s all about you and what you bring to the sessions to be transformed.
Come and join me.
If not now, then when?

What or who is causing you the greatest stress in your life at the moment?…
These classes are for you if you would like to go on an inner retreat to transform this stress and the impact it is having in your life.

We are currently going through some phenomenal astrological transits… one of them being the Venus retrograde until June 27th. This is a powerful time to transform whatever grievances, grudges, stress you are holding onto in relation to others, yourself, and anything you value.

So… if you’d like to be guided through 6 sessions to transform what’s been zapping the joy out of your life, then come and join this online series from the comfort of your home. Starting June 21st, right in the solstice window…

Join and pay $300,00 now

Need a payment plan? No worries;) You can choose for 2 payments of $150,00 each; one today and the next one 30 days from now

Or choose for 3 payments of $100,00 each

Upon completion of payment, Paypal will redirect you to the detail page of the classes.

If it resonates with you and you would like more, then I am looking forward to sharing this transformational time with you as we officially enter the Summer of Love!
The Age of Aquarius is here… June 24th to be precise;)

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Feeling Weary and Exhausted?

15. June 2012 · 4 comments · Categories: clearing fear, energy clearing · Tags: , , , , ,

Have you ever noticed how much tension is held in the body that you may not have been aware of until…

you had an experience of deep (emotional) release? And only then realized how tightly you’d been holding on?…

I have been experiencing a lot of this lately. And most of it seems to have been driven by the controlling attempts of ego programming. What do I mean by that? All the ways I have identified who I am with certain roles, identities taken on over the years. Letting these go, one by one, as I am aware of them, feels like getting naked. That feels vulnerable and that triggers subtle ( and sometimes not so subtle!) ways of covering up once again.

I once read somewhere: EGO = Edging God Out

Pushing the Divine out, trying to remain in control.

It dawned on me that this is precisely what these programs have been doing. And that as I am surrendering to the Divine more and more, I am feeling the exhaustion being released.
It has been like trying to keep a beach ball pushed under water for goodness knows how long.
I suddenly saw how there had been this unconscious addiction to adrenaline, triggered by fear, which had been stored in the body. I could literally feel it in my kidneys.
This kept me constantly doing something to transform the fears and hence kept me in this loop of DO-ing. A catch 22 cycle…

Until it dawned on me that I could ‘simply’ hand over all the unconscious addictions to the Divine to be transformed. And that I could simply BE. If action is required then I receive inspiration and I act on that. And if there is no inspiration, then I simply relax and rest.

Now how do I recognize this pattern is trying to run the show?

It wants to DO something, anything… as long as it is doing something, it feels important, in charge and as if things are under control.
When there is nothing to DO, it freaks out.Totally exhausting!

Over the last few years I have really come to trust the magnificence of Divine Timing and Scheduling. The number of times I have experienced appointments being cancelled or postponed and suddenly having unexpected time off… and then receiving the rest I required and hence being open to receive many wonderful insights… and everything I require, including money to cover living expenses, showing up in unexpected ways.

It used to trigger lots of doubt and fear in me. So I’d process those and experience relief… for a while… until the next wave came and there was more to process. This was such a sneaky way of keeping me in the DO-ing mode!

I see many on a spiritual path in the same or similar operating mode. Perhaps you can recognize it in others? Maybe even in yourself?

If so, no wonder so many light ‘workers’ are feeling exhausted and weary by now.

I feel very blessed to have ‘discovered’ the HeartSpace, as shared by Mary Nalini MacNab from www.delphicwave.com.
When I first experienced this a few years ago, I sort of got it… well, that’s what I thought. Haha… the clue here was that I thought I got it;)

Nalini said that the HeartSpace was given to us by the Divine Mum to support us through these times as these energies are simply too much for the bodies to transmute. That is what many of us have been DO-ing for who knows how long…

Having been a very dedicated spiritual warrior in many incarnations, totally committed to the Divine, the joke is that I see now how I had been so busy DO-ing that I edged out the Divine.
What an interesting way of twisting energies…

I really ‘got it’ the other day ( only took me a few years) when I heard Nalini laugh when someone mentioned that handing everything over to the Divine, into the cocoon to be transformed ( you can get a visual of this on the www.beheartspace.com site and in the e-book you can experience it more in-depth) was the easy way…

Well, it is the ‘easy’ way if you can surrender to the Divine;) And that requires letting go of the controller, the DO-ing… and allowing yourself to be held by the Divine, to let her handle the details, to trust that when she requires you to take action, she will inform you and you will know…

One of the biggest arguments against this is often that if you hand it all over to the Divine, then you won’t DO anything anymore and just sit and meditate all day.

Well, that is a big fat lie! A very clever and convincing one at that but still a lie.
Just another way of keeping separation between Spirit and humanity in place.

What if the truth is that we are living here in co-creation with the Divine… and that as sparks of the Divine in physical human form, we are here to live as one with the Divine? Like rays of sunshine, each an expression of the sun?
The sun being the source and the rays expressions of the source… One can’t BE without the other….
Or as Nalini often says, like the droplets in the waves in the ocean…

So what if the identity of the spiritual warrior is outdated? Who would you BE without that identity?

Many of the qualities defining the spiritual warrior may still be ‘valid’, however, what if the energy inherent in being a warrior is handed over to the Divine to be transformed and optimized for these times?
That does require courage, a warrior quality indeed. What if there is no fighting or battle required, which keeps the duality of good vs bad in place? What if it is a matter of letting all the identities go which have kept you edging out the Divine?

And that by embodying your Divinity, your light shines so bright that all that is required is for you to ‘simply’ BE…. giving expression to your authentic spark of the Divine in ways only you can… taking action when you feel the inspiration from the Divine… and that as you let your light shine, just like a ray of sunshine, that your presence illuminates the world…

I wonder what this will be like… and so I surrender the spiritual warrior identity, and any other identities I may have (un)consciously been holding on to, to the Divine now… to be transformed… allowing this body to be a vessel for the light of the Divine… joyfully expressing this in many ways I am sure to yet discover;)

If you can relate to any of this, I’d love to read about your experiences and insights! So go ahead and leave a comment… and please share this with your friends if you feel that way inspired. You can click on any of the social media buttons below, making it super easy.

Thanks and many joyful blessings,
Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Divine Money Laundry Service

12. June 2012 · 1 comment · Categories: energy clearing · Tags: , , ,

The conversation around money continues… and yes, you read it right: Divine Money Laundry Service.

What the heck is this?!
Ever since my enlightening conversation with money a little while ago ( feels like lifetimes have passed since writing about that!), I have been having the most interesting insights and shifts. In case you missed that conversation, you can read it here: http://www.innerdelight.com/wp/can-you-guess-who-she-is/

You know how you can read or hear about something 1000 or so times and then the next time it ‘suddenly’ clicks into place? The events leading up to this recent click for me included many sessions with Mary Nalini MacNab from http://delphicwave.com. Last year sometime she told me about Inelia Benz’s ‘Reconnecting with the Spirit of Money Exercise’ . I listened to the audio and did the exercise, however, something in me was resisting things shifting so… I ‘forgot’ to do it and then forgot all about it… yes, this does still happen to me on occasion, too! Yet another confirmation of the power of support from a mentor or group…

So I had the conversation with money and then Fay Hart shared a comment on Facebook about Inelia’s exercise.
Just the other day I popped on over to Inelia’s site again and actually read the written version of the exercise. And wow… there it was… one of the last sentences:

“The signature, you will find, is extremely similar to that of Mother Earth because they are one and the same.”

That I had not read that or registered that as a big aha before was amazing to me;) Yet here we are…
Seems it took a while for me to allow this to emerge in conscious awareness.

I was sharing this with my dear friend Nicola this morning, whose magical conversations in her 5D Girl Diaries you can read at http://fifthdimensionalgirl.wordpress.com/, and she asked if I had written a blog about this yet. Well, I had not and so she sparked me to get this ‘out there’! Thanks Nicola;)

As I have been very aware that presence or absence of money has nothing to do with money itself but everything to do with the projections we have placed upon it and/or identified with, I started pondering how I could take this to another level. And so it dawned on me that it was time for the Divine Money Laundry Service.

Nalini has been teaching me how to let the HeartSpace hold me and to surrender everything holding me back from embodying my Divinity to the Divine, to hand it over to the transformational cocoon. I have often referred to the cocoon as the cosmic laundry service… and during the current Trinity series there is a lot of surrendering going on!

After that conversation with money I took out a few 50 euro bills and sprayed them with one of my Aura Soma sprays, to clear the energy of the projections infused in those bills.

You could do this with a smudging stick or holy wood or whatever clearing method you prefer,too. Or create your own spray by adding some yummy essential oils to water and spray with that. Something magical happens when those bills smell delicious… and it is a lot of fun!
And yesterday it occurred to me that every time I do this, whether money is coming into my bank account or is handed to me in physical notes or coins, that I have another opportunity to clear that money of all the projections and once again reveal her essence of love and light. And that whenever I then send that cleared money into circulation, she is spreading love and light everywhere she goes. I simply intend the money in my account to be cleared by the Divine Money Laundry Service and to be infused with the yummy spray of my choice, just like I would spray the bills in my presence.

Just like putting laundry into the washing machine and coming out all nice and clean;)

So there you have it, the Divine Money Laundry Service! It is free, anyone can use it and it is available 24/7.

Can you imagine how your experience with money might transform when you look at it this way?
It is such a fabulous opportunity to clear up all the judgments, opinions, points of view etc you have held about money, people having or not having money, including yourself, and organizations dealing with money…

and allowing the Divine to transform all of that so that the essence of money remains, to be circulated consciously.

Of course it isn’t necessary to spray your money, however, if this would seem like fun to you, then give it a go and notice what happens…

I’d love to hear about your experiences and what this may have stirred within you!

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Desperate Times Call For…

09. June 2012 · Write a comment · Categories: clearing fear, energy clearing

Have you ever noticed that when you’re feeling desperate that all your unconscious programs or habits kick into high gear?
I’m talking about those times where you feel your back is against the wall and you have nowhere to run…

As uncomfortable as this may feel, what if you took a moment to simply STOP and breathe?… You know, all the things you know are great to relax and open you up to receive inspiration… and yet when under extreme stress, have you ever found yourself forgetting everything you know and reverting back to automatic pilot behavior?

The last few months I have been finding myself reviewing everything in my life. It started with the spring equinox in March. I felt this deep urge to consciously review what I was taking with me into this new cycle. It started by going through all my physical belongings and sorting out what I was willing to carry with me and what was I willing to let go of.

The very next day I found out I had to move within six weeks so this clearing out was perfect timing. I proceeded to throw out a lot of stuff, including notebooks from trainings I have taken over the years. I felt that if I required any of the information then I simply had to tune in and trust I would know it as I had embodied it. And if I had not embodied it by now then the odds of me owning it were very slim so why hold on?

I gave a lot away to charity and also sold a few items so that by the time I was ready to move, there was  considerably less to move. And even still… ;)

The next level of sorting out has been to very consciously be aware of which thoughts, beliefs, stories and identifications I had been holding on to, often unconsciously.

And this is where it has been interesting to observe…

Wouldn’t you know it? It occurred to me that the things which continued to show up in my life which were causing me stress, and which I had processed from every possible angle, simply had to be unconscious addictions!

One of these was a light bulb moment for me. It occurred during the new Trinity series with Mary Nalini MacNab from http://delphicwave.com. Having set out, a long time ago, on a path of embodying trust, one of the ways this had been showing up for me was through repeatedly creating situations in which my trust would be ‘tested’. Trusting the Divine supports me… this set me up for a playing out of the controller in me, driven by egoic programming, believing I had to do everything on my own… and this would be played out like a battle with my Divine Self. As if I constantly had to prove that I trust.

It was as if a part of me thought that if I surrendered that to the Divine, then I was betraying my agreement.
Can you imagine the relief I experienced when this penny dropped?
Handing over ALL the unconscious agreements,attachments, addictions, identifications etc to the Divine to be transformed…

Now I am aware how these have been held in the body and how they have triggered automatic reactions, out of habit. And as I am aware of this and handing all of that over to the Divine to be transformed as well, I am finding myself feeling rather odd… with no point of reference… the sensation of my cells dancing and moving like waves in the ocean…

Finding words to describe this is almost impossible… so I allow myself to be carried by these waves and am wondering what will emerge. It feels exciting, like anything is possible. Like having a blank canvas and lots of colored paints… and that moment just before the first brush stroke on the canvas…

Anyone else experiencing this or something along these lines?…

joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

What will you tell or write?…

07. June 2012 · Write a comment · Categories: energy clearing

Time to write a new story?…

With all the cosmic impulses supporting us in letting go of opinions, outdated points of view, perceptions and identifications with the past… what if we now have the choice to choose each moment that which brings us joy?…
What will you be choosing?… And what, or which roles, will you have to stop identifying with in order to live this joyful expression of your heart?…

I have found it to be most useful to have some sort of daily practice to transform the often unconscious addictions to the past ( or old way of being/doing). For me this includes daily connecting with my Divine Team, journaling, quiet time to simply BE and play with what would be fun for me now.

Having ongoing support in groups or with a mentor to make big shifts is probably one of the biggest gifts we can each give ourselves at this time. For me this is time with Nalini from Delphic Wave and Be HeartSpace ♥ Absolutely soulfood for me and this is what has supported me through some huge shifts the last few months.

I, in turn, offer this kind of support to others through private sessions and also in classes.
The next opportunity is coming up with the TAT ~ Tapas Acupressure Technique ~  Basics webinar series.

Six weeks of support as you are guided through TAT sessions to transform your own limitations or whatever is keeping you holding on to the old, the past….

Ready to experience a profound shift in the way you perceive yourself, money, relationships, your family, livelihood and overall wellbeing? Then let’s TAT.

These six weeks will deepen your connection with your Self and also show you how you can continue with TAT on your own.
This TAT Basics is all about you.
If you’re new to TAT or are a seasoned pro, this is time to receive ♥

I’m delighted to facilitate these sessions and know we will have a lot of fun together as well;)
Want to join us? It’s going to be a fabulous global gathering.
Starts Thursday June 21st at 12noon EST. From your computer.

http://www.innerdelight.com/cms/index.php/en/upcoming-events

Many joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

Writing and Embodying a New Money Story

15. May 2012 · Write a comment · Categories: energy clearing · Tags: , , , , , ,

Let’s talk about money.

Amazing how one word can evoke so many different responses from within us, isn’t it?…
It has fascinated me, eluded me, tempted me, supported me… and also triggered the living daylights out of me while I unknowingly projected all my judgments about it and those who have or don’t have it, including myself, onto it.

Over the years, I have invested thousands of dollars in programs and trainings to understand what often made no sense to me. And having been one to want to figure things out and loving a good old challenge and mystery to be solved… I didn’t give up very easily.

I looked at the spiritual side of it, the emotional, mental, practical and whatever other sides there were to be explored… An obvious one was that money wasn’t spiritual so therefore wanting anything material at all would make me materialistic and soooo not spiritual! Not to mention the vows of poverty and all of that.
I uncovered many, many inner programs running in the background, running my life and setting me up to keep this mystery unsolved to a large extent.

I studied the Law of Attraction long before it was known as that, attended workshops all over the world from the time I was 18 and even started teaching others how to upgrade their inner programming and shift their reality from the inside out. Resulting in life transforming experiences, including huge money breakthroughs.

I manifested plenty of amazing things over the years and some would take an hour, others a few days and some a few years. From flying around the world first class ( and this was not during my flying career), to money showing up in the most unusual ways, to parking spaces in busy streets, and all kinds of things in between.

And it wasn’t until the other day that a series of insights made me see how I had been withholding from what I would call the ‘BIG’ things showing up as fast as the parking spaces or green traffic lights, for example.

It was a combination of those things that had been ‘hiding’ in plain sight. Have you ever noticed how that is the best way to hide anything?…

Probably REALLY obvious to those around me and yet, no matter how often they may have told me, the penny didn’t drop, literally!

The underlying mother program of them all was based on…

judgments. Not only those I was holding onto about money and what I made the presence or absence of money in my life mean about me… but literally what judgments meant to me.

Have you ever experienced how sometimes hearing a word described in many different ways can suddenly result in one of those light bulb moments? I have been very blessed to attend a lot of Mary Nalini MacNab’s ( from www.delphicwave.com)  programs and having private sessions with her over the years. In the Embodying Fluidity program she talks about surrendering all fixed positions and how holding on to these takes tremendous amounts of energy.

Well, fixed positions include points of view, beliefs, opinions, ways you justify or defend anything in your experience, basically anything which keeps you experiencing lack and separation… and keeps you from embodying Oneness.
So it suddenly clicked into place when I saw that these were all forms of judgment in some shape or another and especially the justifying or defending part.

Which was tied in with the other mother program… that of being addicted to challenges and solving problems!

Which is driven by the control freak aspect which will have you believe you have to DO something, seeking the illusion of being in charge, keeping you trying to figure it out ( this is a BIG red flag to know your controller is active) and will have you trapped in the hamster wheel, complying with the rules and regulations of society so as to be accepted and to fit in, chasing your dreams and never quite living them fully because many of them weren’t originally yours anyway so could never make your heart sing…

and on and on it goes…

And to then pretend to yourself and the world that you’re not judgmental and that you accept what is, while certain people or circumstances can get a charged reaction from you within a milli-second ;)

As long as there is anything triggering you, you’re pushing against it, not wanting to embody it as YOU.
So to the degree that you hold a charge about money or any institutions which represent money to you, you block yourself from receiving this aspect of you and that can reflect in money or lack thereof.

A quick way to check how this might affect you? Well, what comes up for you around the Vatican, for example? I once heard that the Vatican bank is one of the most abundant banks in the world, if not THE most.
Or how about CEO’s of companies receiving huge bonus lump sum payments while the company is going under and employees are losing their jobs or have to take pay cuts?
How about family inheritances? Or coming into money and keeping it quiet from others?

You might be open to receiving and yet find yourself having to get rid of it as soon as possible. This explains why many lottery winners have spent all their millions within two years and often find themselves even worse off than before.

It has nothing to do with money.

It has everything to do with how you feel about it, what you make it mean.
These inner programs can be so intertwined that they spin your mind, tripping you into overwhelm and confusion so that you back off and leave them alone. Hence keeping the story going… and wondering why nothing you DO seems to work.

Now… isn’t there a short cut? Yes, there is.

Love. Love yourself… love your life… love all aspects of you in the many forms they show up and are reflected to you through ‘others’, including money.

As A Course in Miracles so beautifully says: “Love holds no grievances”.
So are you willing to let go of being right? Letting go of justifying why you defend your points of view, opinions, all those fixed positions? Whatever that brings up may well be your way of denying the powerful co-creator you truly are, able to write a new story about money which supports you as you embody abundance in all its forms, including money, as expressions of Oneness…

Will you join me?

Joyful blessings,

Tina
www.innerdelight.com

Copyright © 2012 Tina van Leuven. All Rights Reserved.

 

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